Thursday, November 30, 2006

It can tear you up inside;

last night, was tired
so slept early again

woke up at noon today
woke up late la
i was suppose to meet xuanya at 1315 okay

anyway i didn't really rush la
since it's also a day for me to relax yeah

met xuanya at redhill mrt
we tried to rush to vivo
cause the movie starts at 1400 la

when we reached the cinema
it was like 1350 already la
and the queue was damn long okay
we don't have the time to watch happy feet already la
even tiong starts at 1540 la
but i'm meeting someone at that time la

when we reached the counter, it's about 1410 already
and the tickets sold out la
so we brought deck the halls tickets instead la
i hope it's funny or nice la
our seats were pa dao bu si one okay
just the second row infront of the screen la

brought my favourite, nachos

it's not funny
but it's quite got a meaning la
beautiful also la
xuanya got a headache cause we needed to look up
and the lights in the screen were damn bright and shiny la

the movie ended at 1620 la
and i'm meeting tricia at 1630 at tiong okay
so rushed there

reached there at 1645
then took bus to our work place
we got on the bus, and it's already like 1710 la
when the bus ride had to take one hour la
and we have to reach there before 1730 okay
we're late, so it's postpone to tomorrow la
SORRY TRICIA! I'LL BE EARLY TOMORROW!

so we took bus back
i alighted at great world
then took bus home
took bus here and there, headache man
not really that tired la

tomorrow got training,
after training i got to rush to my work place again la
then rush back to tiong for lunch
i want to work tomorrow la!
people remind me to bring basketball!
i don't want to go back home just to get a pathetic ball!

wo men de ming tian

reply my messenge, or i'll cry

Make your heart believes a lie;

I wonder how we can survive this romance;

I DIDN'T MOLEST JON!
HE MOLESTED ME INSTEAD!
RAHH!

last night, i'm very tired
so slept early for ONCE okay

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUTTER!

woke up at nine
when i'm supposed to meet at ten la
oh wells, i don't have the mood to go la

alex's irritated with me and wanling la
cause we were always late haha

i think i saw wanqiu

met wanling in tiong
she eat damn slow la, and so i've to wait for her la

went ljs to have lunch

went sentosa, palawan beach

then we went to the towers
and alex can't see us haha

went siloso beach for luge rides
damn funny okay haha
wanling got u turned by us and alex's stucked at the side
i'm in the middle trying to move la
but sadly me and alex left wanling alone haha
alex also another idiot la
and in the end got a bang by wanling la
why didn't she go alex's side? haiyer

...

went vivo ljs to have lunch
i'm full already yeah

is that you?

drank three cups of coke today la

then went rooftop
too sunny today la

why suddenly appear in my thoughts after so long already?

i met gays and a retarded at the bus stop la
my eyes damn pain okay

in the bus, the gays were sleeping on each other okay
everyone's invisible eh
saw garett

i'll be out with xuanya tomorrow
as i promised her already, oh wells
anyway i'm getting my ahem tomorrow! yesh!
tricia! you're lucky that i'm in a good mood la! haha

i dislike to owe people dates
i dislike to be responsible

If I'm with you, I'll take the chance

And I slowly go insane,
that I thought would last somehow

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZITA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIYU!

last night, i lied on my bed, can't sleep
cause think about it, makes me happy

woke up at 0630 la
my alarm clock spoil okay
but i guess i still can reach school in time

this time i took bus instead of mrt
and i didn't know got traffic jam la
i'm late, oh man

reached school at 0830 la
ran fifteen rounds around the track

i tried to stretch out my leg and make natasha trip la haha
but luckily, she didn't fall haha
oh wells, i'm naughty haha

did some fast forward thing
damn funny okay
patrick fell la haha

the sky went dark
so we started playing matches
today's a cooling day for us,
a good and happy day
i didn't know we were so lucky
but i guess it's once in a million times
adela's damn tall la
her shooting damn accurate today la
i like being tall la, cause can conquer the whole court haha

lin's hands got all the stuffs and it looks like blisters
but is not, it caused by sunburn
me and alex got it also la
i didn't know okay

after training,
me and alex hurried do our nyaa silver booklet
we took very long to finish our five days la

xuanya came and pass me the photos

amandatan came and disturb me la
justin, amandatan, natasha and me
got a lot of mosquitoes bites la, ugly man haha

sherylpat disturbed me also la
everytime i'm writing, she'll shake my pen okay
and i'll have to rewrite la
she's scared of honey bees also la haha
included alex also haha
and she played with my handphone too la
and know what,
she played till no battery la
cause i forgot to charge last night haha

we went tiong to have lunch
lin need to rush off
left alex, wanling and me
bonding time haha

met melissa, and she's waiting for ahem

was tired so went home
but in the end didn't go home la
alone time yeah

the look in your eyes tells me something
if got fate, we'll meet again

johui's leaving already la ):
i shall be nice and buy her favourite fruity bars
and i want her to have it before she leaves haha

i can take my pay already, but i wanna work tomorrow leh
oh wells shall sacrifice for wanling and alex again la
but still i want to work!
tomorrow's gonna be another long day
i don't know what i'll do haha

alex and wanling introduced me this two songs
and the lyrics are in my livejournal yeah

I hear the laughters, I taste the tears

My very first kiss;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNNONG!

woke up at 1230,
when i'm suppose to meet them at 1330 la haha

so in the end met them at mos burger at 1400 haha
met lynn, huiwen, sherlyn, ken and tricia
lynn, huiwen, sherlyn and ken left

me and tricia went ljs to eat
but i wanna eat steamboat la

then went to rent vcd
it's about pirates

walked to tricia's house to watch
jack is amn funny
but sad in the end la
he died la

met lynn at great world, she's alone haha
but i just wanna leave that place fast
meifen! i don't owe you anything!

anyway yesterday i went haircut
and the hairdresser damn funny la
all the hairdresser there damn cheerful but retared la haha
you see, both sides of your hair must be the same length right
me - "my right side is not the same length as my left side"
hairdresser - "cut hair don't have to be the same length at both side"
hairdresser - "or else not fun already"
me - "-_-"
and the money that i always used to cut hair
can buy a lot of useful things la haha

okay i wanna advertise johui's blog
i copied and paste a part of it
her version's funnier haha
wanted to eat my fruit bar. it melted!! rahhh ): and judy took a bite of it. she said it was no longer edible. damn gross. HAHAHA. then jiamin, kat, judy and i kept paddling together. i bet they kept missing me and kat. their kayak kept colliding with ours! we were like laughing the whole way to camp two. then kat and i kept pulling their tagline and the hook. pushed them away so we cld paddle ahead of them. but they always manage to catch up. cuz judy's strong. and jiamin can just happily relax. haha! we kept pushing them to the opposite direction. then they turn so fast!! there was jellyfish! heheh. judy scared me. she said there was some sea monster. then i was like, yea got dinosaur. haha. but the water was damn salty. i almost fell asleep. one thing for sure, if judy's around, you can get high. HAHAHA. whoaaa, we were the last four to arrive. and when i got out of my kayak, i happily fell. and my blisters were hurting. no one was laughing, except, judy. hurr. her again! kay then helped them to carry the kayaks for a wash. and we got a 'shower' too! (: i got hungry. shared butter crackers with jiamin! hehe. yummy :D went to the beach to get my shirt. (i brought along two shirts!) hungry again! we stole judy's food. took all the milo and ovaltine powder. amanda was opening for us. then she (judy) pushed the ovaltine powder onto me. :/ kns! and i took cereal and coffee powder to pour on her. jiamin was laughing like siao luh! i think. haha. so she was a mix of milo, ovaltine, coffee, cereal. HAHA.

i tried to find johui's email, blog and friednster
but i failed cause no hints
in the end she added me today haha
johui, kathlyn, jiamin and me got together again
in a conversation, i MIA haha

i shall change my job to a macs deliever
so i can deliever happy meal for geraldlyn
and she will be happy already haha

oh man i need to do the nyaa thing later la
i need to hand in my report tmr la
or else waste money la

To the very first you;

Baby, you never have to question my love

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN!

yesterday

resting day, didn't go anywhere

relatives came to my house

dinnered at my uncle's house

actually wanna go watch movie but tired yeah

amandatan was damn nonsensical last night la
and she said she's gonna disturb me everyday okay

and i found out her name is not rachel, is kathlyn haha
where's jo hui?!

be the you that you want, and not the you that she wants

is just the starting, somehow i can't stand it anymore

today

woke up at 0800
when i'm suppose to meet them at 0800 la haha

ate breakfast

went to meet them at 0900

then walked to bukit panjang cc to play ball
3 on 3

took cab to suntec
got this exhibition only above age 21 la
it'a about sex pert haha

finding food again
so went around, but most shops not open yet
then went kfc again
amanda's sick of kfc la haha

went into convention hall 4
oh wells, lin's too nervous
saw bungs from teens games also
everything went well i guess
it's not imporant anyway
more matches coming up

went to breadtalk with lin
i want logcakes, cheesecakes and many many more
i saw this bread with pink chocolates on it
it looked damn nice
but i brought bread with custard yeah

oh wells my parents saw something la
they're behaving really weird towards me okay

there's still hope for my handphone
cause all my contacts are inside
i forgot to save it in my sim card la

then went to buy stuffs
was chatting on the phone with tricia
wo bu zhi dao ):

my christmas for this year will be exciting haha

i forgot to blog something about camp
the fourth day on thursday
i was doing something
and lin happily called me sucker
and so she tripped over a rock and roll down the slope on the shore
cause she said something wrong haha
she loves calling people sucker when she herself is one haha
i'll laugh to myself when i think of it okay

feeling neglected, abandoned )':

maybe i'll post my feelings in livejournal instead

Maybe, Darling

It feels so right to be here with you;

i'm back!
i shall blog about my five days of obs trip negatively
it's horrible, tough but fun haha

MONDAY first day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGINE!

the night before, can't sleep but not excited at all

woke up at 0430, i guess

me and liling didn't know we took the same mrt okay
went mac to have breakfast

then went to school
the normal academic people were damn anti-social haha

took bus to punggol jetty
in the bus got people were sleeping
talking
laughing
and some stared blankly, don't know what's going on
alex and lin kept plucking my hair okay, irritating haha

then took boat
we knew our group
oh man, we were all separated
and qianru's in my group la!
at night, i can't sleep already la

our instructor is nafeezah, NAF
our store name is NILA UTAMA haha
i want to go HILLARY la, oh wells
my group got merl, resa, natasha, yiwen, sophia, zhihui, yijing
ona, chui ling, fatima, felissa, qianru, venetia, evangeline and me

got our store
pack our stuffs
got our food, lunch time

then change into our wet attire
went for kayaking practise
then rained okay, went for shelter
while naf was talking about knotts
everyone was sleeping haha, damn zhu okay
cause the weather was cold, so it's nice to sleep somehow

then dinner time,
cooking don't know what shit
but i rather eat my own food haha
then went to bathe

liling went home

slept at the cook house
just for a night only la
other nights, must sleep in tents at campsite la

i can't sleep!
thanks to evangeline! haha
damn cold la, i saw xuanya haha

i miss you like crazy

TUESDAY second day

woke up damn early okay

packed our bag, ready for hiking to campsite one
went back to get the camping sticks
the hiking was short yeah
but the camping bag was damn heavy okay
my back aches
i didn't murder the caterpiller okay haha

then did high elements, the warm weather's killing me
i learnt something

had dinner in the canteen

i need motivation, felt like crying

you're the energy to me

pitch tent, slept all the way in, warm

WEDNESDAY third day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYING!

land expetition

had breakfast in the canteen

then started hiking,
me and felissa carry the apples, and i kept eating it
damn sweet la, we shared la
one apple, many bites haha

was chatting with chui ling
she's damn funny okay
her mother forgot to give her a christian name
when her two sisters got it okay
but she made one herself, JOLENE! haha

the camping bag is bigger than fatima la haha

we got a map to find our way to the campsite la
don't know who said wildballs okay
then everyone started running haha
actually is a lorry la haha

not enough time to finish the last checkpoints
so went to the campsite straight
played the stones game, DAMN FUN!
i enjoyed that haha, we screamed!

then rained, so sat under the shelter
think tank

naf damn disgusting okay
she shit in the bush la haha

the rain stopped, wear our life vest
and JUMP down the quarry
the water's damn clean la
our feet can't touch the ground so everyone's floating
get to bathe after the long hike
we played captain's ball using small cute basketball okay
i kept swimming here and there la
amandatan and alex played cheat okay!
they kept pulling me, prevent me from catching the ball okay haha!
AND I DIDN'T MOLEST YOUR INSTRUCTIOR! HAHA!
i was trying to defend only haha

then walked to campsite
pitched our tent by the seaside, nice scenery

no bathing for that day
as floating on the water at the quarry
is counted as bathing already haha

dinner, cooked our own food
that is the only dinner with feelings
i'm happy this day, i got motivated

i saw stars!
while the instructor was talking about sea expetition the next day
amandatan kept playing with my ears okay
she slapped me also la
she wants me to get horny haha

i rather her than her

what will happen?
i'm scared but somehow...

no reception okay and i want to send a messenge of the threesome
for a girl's birthday okay
must be at 0000 sharp, so it's romantic haha

another mobile came in, they were damn muddy
they were damn unlucky
but we're nice to help them cook food
as they were hungry, thirsty and muddy
they can't bathe okay, poor thing

evan, venetia and me slept first
qianru joined us late
at night got malay songs played okay
damn noisy, i can't sleep la
somemore singing so lousy, irritated my ears only la

how i wish you're the one sleeping beside me

you're gone

THURSDAY fourth day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALDLYN!

beautiful sunrise!

sea expetition

life is unfair

left our bags there
brought our food, ponchors and drinks
went up on a boat
going to mangrove to collect our kayak

reached there, damn muddy la
but fun washing the kayaks

time to get in the kayak
and qianru's my partner la
i went up first,
and when she's coming up, she kept laughing la
i'm scared to capsize okay haha

me and qianru mastered the skills
to control the directions already la
just a day okay haha
we were the sweeper means must be at the back
must ensure everyone's before us
and no one is to be at the back of us

jiamin and joyce needed help
so we changed partners
me and jiamin, joyce and qianru
i helped jiamin a lot okay, must thank me haha
and whoever is my partner damn relaxing one la
when i'm bored, i'm hungry okay
so i enjoyed consuming snacks
me and jiamin shared okay haha

we paddled to to the ocean okay
the water is blue colour and not mud colour already la

OKAY AND SO WE MET TWO IDIOTS!
we helped them okay, jo hui and rachel i guess
WE KEPT LAUGHING LA HAHA, DAMN FUNNY OKAY!
especially the jo hui okay,
no matter how far apart our kayaks are
we will end up together again
our kayaks will end up kissing each other again, haha!
and jo hui really looks like amandatan okay
we kept holding each other kayaks la
like i held it and push to the back, so i'll go front haha
we challenged, see who reach the point first
so me and jiamin won!

washed the kayaks
rachel kept throwing mud at me la
like throwing shit at me okay
but i'm nice, didn't throw back eh

carried the kayaks up to get freshwater, damn cooling haha
jo hui, amandatan and me started eating powder
and we started playing la
and so in the end my body got milo powder,
coffee powder and cereals la
thanks to the both of them okay

but i went up to wash
zhenyi, carmen, felissa and joyce damn naughty okay
zhenyi kept spraying inside la, i'm wearing white you see

carried our bags in from the boat at the jetty
we saw pink jellyfish!
the sunset's damn nice, nothing covers it
no buildings but clouds with the colours of the sunset haha

did massages, the instructor molested me! haha!

went to bathe, met amandatan again la
suay can, she asked me to wait for her then IN THE END...

had dinner outside with
felissa, ona, fatima, yijing, sophia
we chat a lot of stuffs
lame jokes and dirty jokes
one from sophia, here it goes...
"a guy was play soccer and he fell on the mud"
so this is the dirty joke haha
fatima became enthu after the bath eh

we slacked, we don't wanna pack the store
cause we don't wanna have jetty jump haha

practised a cheer for naf
fatima lead us, damn funny okay haha
i don't wanna do la, so retarded haha

venetia is still chatting on the phone, who ah? haha

had fun this day

but my handphone spoiled cause water went in
and i didn't surrender my handphone la

FRIDAY fifth day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWENDOLYNWEE!

i want to catch the sunset okay
but lazy to wake up eh, i wanna sleep more la
evan and qianru leaned on me okay
sqeezed me will death la
i've got no space to sleep at all la
then venetia got so much space okay,
i regretted not sleeping inside la

we were the last fom the whole mobile to wake up okay
we were damn zhu okay

started packing without breakfast la

washed all the ground sheets, tents and ponchors la
heavy and dirty okay

then washed they GUY'S TOILETS la!
dirty okay
guys shit at the bathroom where they bathe la
they should shit at the toilet bowl and not there la
somemore looks like meatballs okay
in the end naf picked the shit up haha
DISGUSTING! I WANT TO VOMIT ALREADY!
DAMN SMELLY AND DIRTY LA!
i prefers the girl's toilets okay, damn clean
cause girls are more on cleanliness

even my white shirt can turn black already la

chat with naf, did the cheer for her
everyone's happy

rained
went to the shelter for kayak
i want the shirt, but i prefer polo tee la

went to the jetty and took the boat
qianru's asleep haha
it's going up and down la

got teachers picked us up
we need to fill up the journal that francis gave us la
then go back to school on monday to put it at the office la
i don't want to wear uniform anymore okay

most of us were tired
wanted to sleep in the bus
in the end, i slept and leaned on zhenyi's shoulder haha

stephanie and felicia lips got sun burnt la

the basketball thingy is postpone to sunday la
messed up my time okay

reached school! happy!

took bus to tiong with zhenyi
chat with justin, jan and atyah

reached tiong
ate steamboat with zhenyi
chat a lot too
the first or second day of camp, we will have homesick
but bare until the last day
we want to stay longer at the camp la
it's always this kind of feelings one la
zhenyi thanks for accompanying me!

home
slept in the bus la, damn tired okay
my bag damn heavy also la

showered
but still itch okay
still got a lot of bites la
i guess it needs a few days to recover la
so i must tell myself not to scratch anymore

went out for dinner
and so i told them how negative is my obs la haha

i need to get a handphone for temporaily!

i shall wake up very late tomorrow
i guess tomorrow i'm out again haha

my voice changed la

why do i feel this way to the both of you?

is everything still the same now?

And now looking in your eyes,
I feel in my heart

And you're the one i'm worried for;

was super tired last night

spent my whole of today
packing my bag la

and my sms free flow one la

OKAY, I'LL MISS SHERLYNHO AND LYNNONG!

haha will miss everyone la
and i hope when i'm back,
nothing change yeah

i'm tired and not excited la

alex! my face got blueblack already la!
i want my slippers back! haha!

the obm girls went off today la
they have to spend a day travelling in the bus la

i heard we have to be seperate into groups la

oh man, i need to wake up damn early tomorrow la

i confused my feelings with the truth, sighs

i hope for the last next morning
i can give up anything because of you

next saturday got match la, damn tired okay, sighs

okay, i'll be back on friday, be patient haha

And i'm trying but i'm dying inside;

where's the smile of yours;

last night, slept late

woke up at 0600, damn tired

need to walk so long to manda's house la
left the envelope in her drawer outside her house

and something terrible happened, scares me la
i hate that thing! unlucky! made me damn worried okay!

took bus to tiong to meet tricia
had breakfast in tiong
so long never see tricia already okay
she's the same retarded la, never change at all haha

then while walking to the bus stop,
we're high and crazy la, it's always like that la haha
took bus to the work place
i'm tired, i wanna sleep

work starts at 1000, but still i didn't get enough sleep

lunch time at 1200, don't know why
it's early today
and tricia knows my deepest darkest secret la, shh

i almost fall asleep while working la
so i've to stand up and work to make myself awake yeah

when the time is approaching 1800,
i'm happy and awake haha

tricia's being irritating okay
don't listen to tricia's nonsense yeah

went to M hotel
and waited at the lobby for mr francis to turn up
he's damn slow okay
he was carrying her babygirl okay haha
signed the paper, and i'm off

my parents are happy today haha

went to expo for dinner
i can't find my ice cream la

then went imm giant to get my last minute camp things
but only got a stuff la haha
the others tomorrow la
and i haven't pack my bag yet okay
i'm worn out la

reached home at 0015 la
shall pack everything tomorrow la
so most probably, i'll be staying home
but my dad wants to bring us to catch a movie okay
lame la, oh well shall see yeah

a lot of people text me to ask me questions about obs okay
and is like ask the wrong person?!

got people miss me!
XUEWEN MISS ME!
PRISCILLAWONG MISS ME!
GERALDLYNTAN MISS ME!
AND I STALK XUEWEN! HAHA!
I'LL MISS THEM WHEN I'M IN CAMP!

but i'll only miss you more,

And in my heart, you leave me never

The more I know of you is the more I know I love you;

last night, i'm shocked la

woke up at 0630, i'm not late haha
i saw sunrise!

met wanling and alex at the bsu stop

wanling treated me haha

training
ran ten rounds around the track la

did some individual skills

then played matches
i don't know why am i so irritated la haiyer
patrick kept interrupting while we're playing la
i got injured too
alex's elbow hit my right eye, and it's blueblack already la
i got hit by the ball, and my lips bleed la
cause i didn't concentrate yeah

may's trying to say goodbye but no one cares about her la haha

wanling went home to change

lin went to meet regine with cherene

went tiong
alex take away kfc to mac
manda and anna came down and met us in mac
had lunch in mac
saw yushan
wanling came and meet us
lynn, huiwen and huiting came and meet us
and they thought huiting was germaine okay
germaine bind? haha
lin came and meet us
and so anna, manda and lin went off
left me, wanling and alex
wanling left
me and alex went sportslinks to find track pants
but failed yeah
then alex pulled me to take 65 with her
and i had to walk to great world to go home la

the clouds on the sky is so beautiful la
don't know why
maybe it's a day specially for you and me

i'm damn busy tomorrow la
go manda's house early in the morning to give form
meet tricia at tiong to go work together
need to meet francis at town, cause my obs form is incomplete
family day all the way till midnight
need to shop for obs things la
i'll be damn tired okay

and the reason is you

this love we share was never made to die;

I wanna say this right
And it has to be tonight

actually i'm out today
but tricia's television spoiled la tsk

stayed at home
can rest
and pack my bag for camp next week
i still got stuffs haven't buy okay, oh man
shall go shopping during the weekends

kind of bored also la

the sky cried

i feel like changing the names in my links
or add nick names

there's training tomorrow, sighs

i'll treasure tomorrow

I don't wanna live this lie,
I don't wanna say goodbye

I miss you again, like yesterday
my misses to you never get less
You shadow shadow keep appeared in my mind
The more i guess, more tears coming out from my eyes
even I wipe off the tears
Our memories that keep appeared,
make me can't stop from crying
I feel regret because you always sacrifice for me
I'm afraid that you'll forget me who never scarifice
I'm sorry, I mean it
I'm really sorry
I feel sorry for being late to say so
But i'm still waiting for you
Perhaps tomorrow you'll be coming back
The more I guess, more tears coming out from my eyes
even I wipe off the tears
our memories that keep appeared,
make me can't stop from crying
I feel regret because you always sacrifice for me
I'm afraid that you'll forget me who never scarifice
I'm sorry, I mean it
I'm really sorry
I feel so sorry for being late to say so
But I'm still waiting for you
Perhaps tomorrow you'll be coming back

Perhaps tomorrow you'll be coming back;

i'm lazy, shall blog a short one

woke up, the time just nice
ate bread with nutella

that driver is damn irritating la haiyer

met audreywong in the noon

saw cheyenne and berna

went to xuanya's house
baked cookies haha
it's nice cause i baked too haha
played computer game, O2jam, fun haha
watched cds, it's about band, funny la haha

saw elaineyeo
saw sophia

skipped four 75 buses la
home

i wanna be out tomorrow
i don't wanna stay at home
but i haven't pack my bag for camp la, oh man

why didn't you tell me that you're gone?

I'm afraid that you'll forget me who never sacrifice;

I'M A FOOL

I'm stupid, I'm silly
It's too late to feel regret
I knew that I can't turn back anymore
And i knew i can't see you anymore
It's all my fault, I'm sorry
I'm stupid, because I didn't say out at that moment
And now
I apologise
We both are too stupid
Because of our self-esteem
We are down because of missing each other
We both are too stupid
Because of loving each other
So we have been crying for a day long
You and I
are so silly
Please consider again
we've gone through so many suffers till now
Please consider again, as you'll regret
It's all my fault, I'm sorry
I'm stupid, beacuse I didn't say out at that moment
And now
I apologise
We are both stupid
Because of our self-esteem
We both are too stupid
because of loving each other
So we have been crying for a day long
You and I
are so silly

It's too late to feel regret
I knew that I can't see you anymore;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUANYA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLYLOW!

woke up, went back to sleep again
but i'm not late this time
the time just nice

met alex at the bus stop
wanling's late again
we're not gonna wait for her la

today is an unlucky day for me la

i didn't know security guard of our school
is starting to check students attire la

while me and alex were walking up the slope
patrick saw us
and we've to run to show him okay

physical training
ran around the track
big sylvia chasing us okay!

did crabbing, everyone cheated!

did shooting, i'm not on pumping position that long la

played matches
not serious at all
i didn't put any effort on it
but it's funny haha

played soccer!
i can be a striker haha

went to meet hillary
and i didn't know bookshop didn't open today la
can't buy any books haha

then went tiong
met liling at the bus stop
me and wanling take away ljs to kfc
liling and hillary went sweettalk
lin and alex ate kfc
full of jokes la haha
played poker cards
priscillawong came
tricia came to pass me the songs lyrics
FINALLY I GOT IT!

oh man, zhenyi's waiting
priscillawong, hillary, liling and me
went habourfront by mrt
we played hide & seek la haha

wanling forgot to take back her keys from my file okay

met zhenyi at the mrt control station
went vivo giant to find solid fuel
then went other shops
all don't have la, haiyer
we asked the information counter,
she said maybe habourfront got
no rooftop, sorry

then walked back to harbourfront
to try our luck
in the end, nothing, haiyer

went to take taxi
a lot of driver rejected because we've got five people
zhenyi happily sit at the front la, tsk
i felt damn awkward la

took to bukit timah
hillary, thanks for the ride!

took 961 to beach road
we thought we were lost
but thank god, we asked people for directions yeah
went to army camp
finally got solid fuel la!
liling went there to shop also haha
saw nathalie and lyanne

went around singapore
just for a box of solid fuel okay
cause must be by today buy la!

liling and priscillawong going east coast
zhenyi'g going home
they took bus
i took mrt to tiong
walked to wanling house
passed her her keys
she needed to go out tonight yeah
i'm damn nice right
walked to her house just to pass her her keys la

then lynn called

walked to great world cause it's near
if i were to take bus, i've got to walk back to tiong again la
i rather walk to great world

reached great world
sherlyn and stephkoh went for work
uniform nice eh
saw melissa huiting and lynn
huiwen's working
i'm confirmed with a lot of new stuffs already haha
thanks lynn! haha

met yossie and wong
home

BABOON!
i've to stand behind some stupid boards at the bus stop
and peep at buses that pass by la
people thought i was a pervert okay
somemore i was on the phone
cause someone was scared of the dark, timid!
don't look at the *side* la haha
LOOK BEHIND YOU!

It's you i'm waiting for
i'm willing, it's worth

totally unlucky day

it's a long post today
i'll blog the lyrics tmr

Cause I didn't say out at that moment;

Remember to let her into your heart;

woke up, went back to sleep
cause is still early
and oh shit, i'm late again

tricia and jiamin went to have breakfast at mos burger
went to meet them at 1100

then went to meet liling at queenstown mrt
wah so fast, so loving

then went to meet xuanya at redhill mrt
beecheng's there too

then went vivo
i wanna watch grudge 2 okay
but xuanya's scared la haiyer haha
she haven't recover yet
in the end, we're watching flushed away
cause xuanya said it's funny
and i don't know yeah
walked around the shops for time to pass
went into the threater
quite funny la

went to have lunch at ljs

went back to tiong
accompanied her to ntuc
we both are cock eye la
don't have baking soda la

tricia last minute called me okay

then rushed to great world
sherlyn and stephkoh walk damn slow la
they took their own sweet time okay
in the end, it's not even interview
we just have to fill up forms la

then rushed back,
oh shit one hour already haha

got training tmr
after training, busy la

i'm happy, i'm warm :D

i should be happy, but i'm weak again

1 more day!

And don't you know that it's you;

And shown me how to love unselfishly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANISSA!

last night, i had a sweet dream

okay, my LIVEJOURNAL's ready out for public
i'll put it in my links also
i tried doing the layout, but i don't know it's nice or not
i need suggestions, or maybe i'll think of something else
i locked some posts as private,
i don't want to add anyone as friends
i don't need anyone to leave any comments
just read will do yeah

triciayeo made me damn pekchek okay
reply or i'll cry

i helped chelsywong for her new layout okay haha
damn pink la
go see her post for today!

there's no work tomorrow,
damn happy, don't know why :D

oh man got to plan for tomorrow
all crashes together
will be damn busy

2 more days

If there were no tears, no way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And dream were meant for sleeping,

last night, slept around midnight
thanks to retarded people la

it feels like i'm holding you, to sleep every night

woke up at 0600
turned off the alarm clock, went back to sleep again
woke up at 0645
oh shit, i'm late again
can't blame me, i'm too tired

i saw sunrise, beautiful!

met tricia in tiong
i know i'm late gain, and she kept niaming

in the bus, damn cold

we're always dragging ourselves to go work
i know her deepest darkest secret already
damn weird and funny,
and i guess she MUST need more sleep haha

mp3 has always been a friend of mine, accompany me

and i started pushing handphones to her haha
and she said, it looks like sushi haha

don't know who's birthday,
i only know that i'm hungry

went back to work
and here's a funny conversation
i was listening to mp3, so i can hardly hear voices
tricia - "press cancel right?"
that is what she wanna ask me
but i can hardly hear, and so i guessed by her motion of her mouth
me - "huh? breast cancer?"
and she laughed none stop la haha

we went toilet
tricia hates raining days
cause she's scared, and she held me damn tight la
her imagination can go wild eh haha

time flies slow today, don't know why
maybe cause i kept looking at the clock
you're missed by me, always

then we started pasting stickers la haha
at least can make us awake yeah
WE WERE HIGH THAT TIME!
TRICIA SUCKS! HAHA!

hillary's back!
LIN! you wore skirt and hairband right haha
i got spies!

my dad fetched me, went for dinner at mac

then went to fetched my momma and sister
as they went for buffet

then went to my uncle's house
i'm damn tired okay, i can just lie anywhere and sleep la
henry grows bigger and taller already la haha
don't know what the adults were talking about okay
they were talking in hokkien which i haven't learn
and don't understand la
plus they were pointing at me la
stayed for two hours la
chocolates!

reached home at 2345

i'm gonna sleep as long as i can tonight la
and never wake up anymore HAHA

tomorrow will be the day, where i approach to things undone

i realised this few days, i need to wake up damn early la
don't even have enough time to dream la haha

i want to be the first one that holds your hand,

tired day ):

3 more days

Then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty

I just need to note down everything before i forgets
how memorable the memories were;

my alarm clock rang at 0600
but i off it and went back to sleep
hoping i'll wake up 5 mintues later
but in the end it turns out 45 mintues later la
oh shit, i'm late

i'm tired

reached school at 0815
15 mintues late
but thank god, patrick's later than me haha

only four people turn up for training la
laughed at amanda's jokes la haha

he talked to us,
and i guess i really need to think already
i admit i just don't care
i just don't want to put in any effort on something i dislike to do

did trails, funny
why every individual skills patrick did,
don't look retarded, but we do? haha

played match with the seniors

after the match, finally training ended
how i wish the time flies faster, i don't know why
patrick talked to us again
i wasn't listening at all, was thinking other things
the clouds on the blue sky, beautiful

at the bus stop
amanda just don't believe i'm a lonely driver now haha

in the bus, alex and wanling kept irritating amanda la
i can't save her cause i'm used to it already haha

went kfc
only amanda and alex ate
but practically me and wanling were stealing food haha

waimun came
played cards again, and i improved this time haha
alex and amanda left
cards with me, we continued playing

waimun go meet her friend
i've to go meet xuanya
so wanling went home

went ljs for lunch with xuanya
we talked ALOT ALOT of stuffs la
catch up with her ALOT la
ALOT of jokes too la, damn funny haha
we intro each other ALOT of songs also haha
can you imagine we sat in ljs for 3 hours la
chatting and laughing la haha
our laughters filled the whole restaurant la haha
but i'm glad i find time to catch up with her yeah
and she booked me next monday and wednesday already haha
LET'S COUNT DOWN!
i'm sorry i can't accompany you
i'm too tired

then went to buy ear studs
and xuanya wanna buy BIG BIG ear studs for me la haha
i wanna crave ring

then went more than words
it's cute

don't sad yeah, take it easy
i'll try to find time and go alrights

then went popular to buy something

took bus home
i just don't want to take that bus

i'm worn out

there's work tomorrow, i hope i won't be late to meet tricia haha
after work, i'm going a lot of places haha

i realised i've got a lot of things undone la

ni kao zhe wo de jian bang, kan zhe ri luo
wo xiang yi zhi qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
hai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai
xiang zhe yang de sheng huo, woaini, niaiwo

think tank yet relax day (:

4 more days!

how i wish i could be the thing, and the one
that appears infront of you

Can't help but remember, how you made me feel

last night was chatting with lynn
but it's better if we meet face to face
depends on fate

i feel very bad, still sorry

slept at 0200 plus

woke up at 1030
i took my own sweet time

met tricia at tiong
i'm late for 15 minutes, sorry

i don't know whether i'm hungry or not
but tricia advised me to eat
plus i didn't have breakfast or lunch earlier
so had lunch at ljs

slacked at 6th level
we booked the place first haha
waited for ginwei

met ginwei
went to arcade, she played ddr
she's hot haha
whenever she dance, people will look la

heavy rain, i stood at the rooftop
i felt better, the feeling's good

helped yossie to buy green tea apple
my treat la haha

the ah lians money free flow one la
kept playing ddr, and don't want people to play okay
selfish tsk
there's a girl age 15 but she looked even more mature la
she waited for very long okay, poor thing haha

maybe you took it for granted, i don't know

went great world, i think i saw someone
met yossie and wong
saw jiamin and xuewen

rained again
don't worry, i'll understand everything
i don't feel a thing

and i guess i waited again
for nothing to happen

walked home, i felt weak

okay i know whose that YOU! already la
sec one la, tsk

there's training tomorrow
i don't think i can concentrate

zhuo le ni de peng you
wei she me hai zhe yang dui wo

wo hen xin ku
neng fo zai rang wo shi yi xia, bao yi xia

another day passes by

)':

You took my heart, and tore it apart

should i put it as wallpaper?

guess who are the three beauties haha


can't blame us, wind's too strong











collage!

The fear of losing of slipping away;

woke up at 0600, back to sleep again haha
woke up again at 0630
can't blame me, cause i'm too tired

met tricia at tiong at 0745

reached the work place early

new handphones today!
time flies fast

went for lunch
i treated tricia this time haha
and we were dreaming again la,
being millionaires haha

back went, i need to get my...
but the door was locked la
thanks to that guy who got the card and came up almost the last la
we cheated, we punch card earlier haha

work again, we were fast la
finished the star send of k800 la
and we started packing, we love packing haha

jobs were done, home at 1730

tomorrow no work (:
i'm out, i need alone time

dui bu qi, dou shi yi wei wo
wo de chuo

wo she me dong xi dou bu gan xiang
ying wei wo pa...

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer

felt relax and happy today, don't know why

Don't wanna lose to loneliness
Don't wanna lose to emptiness

Don't wanna lose you now
baby, i know we can win this

woke up at 0600, went back to sleep again
woke up at 0630, overslept

met wanling and alex at the bus stop
we're damn fated okay haha

heavy flow la haha
physical fitness, damn funny la haha
quite enjoyed

i'm so annoyed at the pick & roll thing okay
not enough 'mo qi' la
i kept thinking okay

play matches
JUDYTAN CAN'T CONCENTRATE ):
JUDYTAN, IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP, DREAM NO MORE

i'm hoping for you to appear
but once you appeared, i became weak

waimun came
she joined us to play cards

saw hillary at the foyer, RAWR! haha

went tiong ljs to have lunch
they played with my food okay tsk
lynn they all came
played cards again

they left, i went arcade find ginwei
tricia and sherlyn were there
sherlyn's going for an interview and she wore like 'that' la
tricia and sherlyn left
accompanied ginwei
yossie and wong came
yossie! JELLYBEANS! haha
everyone's not free so she went home

i want to chat with lynn!

suppose to go home
in the end, went somewhere quiet for some peace
rain )':

there's work tomorrow (:

i'm willing to wait for you
we must be like this for the time being, we've got no choice
take it as an obstacle, we can overcome it as long as we're together
how i wish we can have alone time
please don't think so much, i'll be worried
don't leave me, i need you )':
woaini

i make a vow that i'll never let you go;

I don't want it to happen to me at all;

woke up at 0600 in the morning, damn early eh
and it's the first time, my sister woke up early la
found my bank account

damn a lot of people in the mrt okay

met tricia at tiong mac at 0700 plus
had breakfast
she got a scratch on her face haha

actually we're work on time
but i'm damn unlucky okay tsk
that cleaner aunty mistook me as a boy okay
she almost chase me out of the toilet la tsk

went for work
my job's damn easy for today
i just love packing haha

lunch break, heavy rain
we ran to the foodcourt okay
we looked out of the windows, just like storm okay haha
tricia's lucky to bring her jacket la
we're always eating the same stuffs haha

ran back to the company la
damn funny okay
tricia ran like aunty, and she's damn slow la
and so i waited for her, and i got myself wet la
thanks to her haha

went to toilet again haha
she messed up my hair okay

back to work
and i'm getting sleepy already
but nevermind, i've my handphone to accompany me haha
tricia don't wanna text her for me la tsk
i wanna ask her something about the handphone saving programs
me - "save the three right?"
she mistook and heard as
me - "save the tree right?"
she - "HAHAHA! save the tree ah, recycle ah HAHAHA!"
me - "-_-"

my ez link photo damn retarded cause i wasn't in it haha
tricia's one more funny, like a duck haha

i can't work tmr, got training ):

and we're finished for the day, happy haha (:

my dad fetched me, i'm too tired to go home myself la
and my momma thought it's because of...

bie xiang zhe me duo, wo shi wu gu de
wo hui hen dan xin de

there's a sad song that can represent my ending
it'll be in my livejournal

unlucky yet happy (:

I find myself trying to wash away the pain;

reading the emails, how am i suppose to feel
heartless yet soft
partly's my fault, sorry
i shouldn't have come into the both of you
but i can't stop her
can see, you still love her a lot
don't give up, i'll help you

i'm out for work tomorrow
is it a good or bad thing?
zhihui's not going ):

soon, my livejournal will be out for public

cause i need you to give me some shelter
cause im fading away

i'm online often this weekends la
catch up with a lot of people
just like the past

people told me, i looked happy this few days

don't get affected by me, don't you sad
like what you told me, i looked happy this few days

looking through the pictures,
unforgettable memories, sighs

wo bu zai ai ni, dui bu qi

na shou ge, rang wo xiang qi ni
wo hen leng, ni neng zai yong bao wo ma
wo neng zai kan dao ni ma

back to my livejournal!

wear my mask in silence
pretending im alright

MY EVERYTHING
the loneliness of nights alone
the search for strength to carry on
my ever hope has seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shined from up above
you surrounded me with your endless love

you are my everything
nothing your heart won't bring
my life is yours alone
the only love i've ever known
your spirit pulls me through
when nothing else will do
every night i pray
on bended knee
that you will always be
my everything

now all my hopes and all my dreams are suddenly reality
you've opened up my love to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that i would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
i hope you'll always know

your my everything
nothing your love won't bring
my life is yours alone
the only love i've ever known
your spirit pulls me through
when nothing else will do
every night i pray on bended knee
that you will always be my everything

you're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time
your my everything
nothing your love won't bring
my life is yours alone
the only love i've ever known
your spirit pulls me through
when nothing else will do
every night i pray
on bended knee
that you will always be my everything

your my everything
nothing your love won't bring
my life is yours alone
the only love i've ever known
your spirit pulls me through
when nothing else will do
every night i pray
on bended knee
that you will always be my everything

every night i pray down on bended knee
that you will always be
my everything oh my everything

PICTURES!