Tuesday, October 31, 2006

lazy and tired to upload the retarded photos
i'll upload when i'm free

It's undeniable that we should be together
went for haircut

that guy cheated our feelings
never call us back okay tsk

TOMORROW! finally the third (:
where am i going tomorrow?

If all things in time, time will i reveal

i'll update the retarded photos tomorrow la
i'm worn out

woke up at 0830, damn early eh
breakfast, bread with nutella, my favourite
went online, chat with yossie
read emails, why do i feel this way again?

met them, saw huiting, huiwen and melissa
lynn passed me her mp3

walked a distance to take bus to harbourfront

met jiamin's momma
her momma works in sentosa, cool eh
skip admission fee haha

waited for bus damn long
so walked like as if the road is ours

reached palawan beach, can't decide where to settle down

tricia and jiamin went suntan
wendy, ginwei and me went foodcourt
to cool down as the weather's warm

they came back and joined us
they complained that got bangalas peeping at them haha

they went 7/11 to buy things
ginwei's damn bhb
i'm busy taking photos haha

tricia and jiamin played water
jiamin kana water haha

then they went into sea water
i can't cause i never bring extra clothings
wendy and ginwei don't wanna go in the water la
tricia kept drinking la, salty isn't it?

they went to wash up

then took bus back to harbourfront
can't decide where to have lunch
jiamin made me ki hong okay tsk
finally settled down in ljs,
stupid aunty kept drinking water without finishing la
she can as well eat the paper cup la haha
we love sauces haha
tricia went to fetch jieyi

jiamin went to buy shoes,
girls, took so long for shopping la, can't stand it

then went to basement for a job interview
good pay plus new place

the funny part is here haha
me and ginwei kept irritating tricia la
by asking questions okay, damn funny la
we laughed till there's no tomorrow la haha

jieyi left
wendy's going to her grandma house
left ginwei, tricia, jiamin and me
we went tiong

then home
met wanqiu at the bus stop
there's a stc girl younger than me, sat behind me
she kept smiling la, as if i know her la haha
scare me okay, weird
lazy to reply msges when i'm asleep haha

my parents very weird today la
i guess my sister told them something about me again la tsk

patrick called me
scare me okay, he sounded damn serious la
tomorrow will be a new start

there's training tmr, i don't want to wake up early
but no choice, sighs

i hope you will tell me everything by tomorrow
don't drag anymore

wo men you mei hao de hui yi
wei she me wo hui na me xiang

three days
maybe, darling

fun day with laughters (:

Say farewell to the darkened night;

if i should stay, i would only be in your way

slept at 0400, woke up at 1200
that is what my holidays work
sleep late, wake up late

family day again, sighs
tricia's bored haha

was out the whole day
my brother brought a new phone la tsk
damn tired la

tomorrow will be a long day for me
i hope miracle will happens just for once la

AUDREYWONG JUST CAME OUT FROM MENTAL HOSPITAL
AND SHE'S GOING IN AGAIN!
she likes bullying people too haiyer!

i really can understand how you feel
maybe _____ just don't wanna admit
and maybe ____ is coming into the both of your way
you don't have to force yourself not to believe
it's normal that you suspect, means you still care
i can see that she puts in more effort than you do, i don't know
or maybe it's not true at all, don't dwell so much
just treasure the time cause you'll never know what will happen tomorrow

wo men xu yao mian dui xian shi
wo men liang ge gen ben bu shi he
zhe ci, wo men xu yao ren shu le

wo dan xin ni
wo hao xiang kan dao ni
wo xiang ni

bitter sweet memories, that is all i'm taking with me

BACK AT ONE
It's undeniable that we should be together
It's unbelievable, how I use to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know
If you don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time, time will i reveal
yeah

one,You're like a dream come true
two, just wanna be with you
three, girl it's plain to see that you're the only one for me
four, repeat steps one tru three
five, make you fall in love with me
if ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
yeah

It's so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about, eh
And Undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would have made it very far
Cause you know you've got the keys to my heart
one,You're like a dream come true
two, just wanna be with you
three, girl it's plain to see that you're the only one for me
four, repeat steps one tru three
five, make you fall in love with me
if ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
yeah

Say farewell to the darkened night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child,
Whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time
one,You're like a dream come true
two, just wanna be with you
three, girl it's plain to see that you're the only one for me
four, repeat steps one tru three
five, make you fall in love with me
if ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
yeah

saturday's post, previous post

i'm back! okay let's go back to the past...
it'll be a long post

JIARUI - stop being childish here haha!

you're the only one that i could ever want;

wednesday (18/10/06)

after i blogged, went town with tricia and jiamin
met them at the stall there
saw may and kellylow

i trusted you

one thing i can't live without;

thursday (19/10/06)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNICE!

and misunderstandings start from this day
i thought i'll have alone time from this day onwards

you became cold towards me

knew all my results
sighs, i can pass my humanities one la
but my ss always pulled my marks down okay
i tried to get more marks, but still fail
i used history method on ss, but it seems like it's not working
and i really prepared to fail my accounts la,
but it turns out miracle haha

i want to tell you, but you kept running away from me

after school, family day haha
liling, sherlyn, tricia and me went kfc for lunch

i wanna get closer to you, can't stand being far away

friday (20/10/06)

and i know it's time to talk to her
it's a matter of sooner or later

there's no training cause of the haze

i can't deny that i'm hating you already

after school, went tiong
then went to accompany audreytan for her guitar lesson
we're damn retarded

somethings you shouldn't say out,
as i've to consider how she feels

we've got no choice but to say white lies
cause we care how she feels

glad we didn't act differently, if you didn't, i won't
cause i'll follow you

and i always hate fridays

knowing that you don't feel the same way;

saturday (21/10/06)

went to east coast park
the sea view at night is nice, the wind made me cold
thoughts...

watching her bring tears to your eyes;

sunday (22/10/06)

went vivo
the rooftop scenery at night is nice
thoughts...

my weekends didn't go well as a penny for my thoughts
next day, school day (:

wo xiang ni

all the letters I write about, is when i get closer to you

monday (23/10/06)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIYING!

not that we don't trust you but we care how you feel

all you only think is two more days, and it's over
but have you ever thought how i feel?
since you chose it, don't regret, i'll be heartless for you

i don't like to have moon face either
and got this two entertaining guys la, anyway i'm entertained haha

next day, public hoilday ):

wo zhi yao ni zai wo sheng bian, wo jiu hui kai xin
i felt so loved

i know there is someone else;

tuesday (24/10/06)

i could have gone out to meet my friends la
stupid parents, family day la

nevermind, next day is school day again (:

doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely;

wednesday (25/10/06)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYLSOU!

since she chose it, and now she regret
i'm the one that keep giving way to her when i'm a victim too
i wouldn't want things to turn out this way either
can you all just understand how i feel?
stop forcing me to do the things that i dislike

went auditorium for some skin talk
liling happily sabo me la
thank god michelle chua didn't catch me
cause i'm the one who shouted "good morning"
i thought people will shout la, but in the end no one shouted

was out of the class almost the whole day la

lynn got bang on her head la
don't blame her alrights, she's not purposely one

i know how you feel, i thought you're the...
everything turns out wrong, poor thing

whenever i see you, i'll look at you more

after school, went tiong
sherlyn, tricia, ginwei and me went rajah inn
i never eat for the whole day, no mood, no appetite

i promised, i'll talk to her, small fry

and the next day is the last day of school ):

don't be afraid to let your broken heart guide you;

thursday (26/10/06)

and i just dislike the face of yours

went to class to put my stuffs, the sunrise was beautiful
but i can't find you

went for morning assembly on the hardcourt
then went to hall for mass
damn boring, but i can't sleep, thoughts...
must we stay this way ever?

then briefing for obs
oh man, need to report damn early okay

went down to play ball,
i want to complain about GERMAINEWONG!
she got a new skill for snatching ball from others la
she taught the others too la
she's a pervert, she molested me la
anyway the juniors played damn violent okay
no fouls la, imagine what kind of game la
but it's a funny game haha

went up to hall for celebrations
our school teachers kiasi la, don't dare to go up on stage okay
not even king kong la, no examples is shown okay
just a dance only what, small fry
not asking them to do stunts like fear factor right
my legs ache la, sat for don't know how many hours okay

went locker to pack things
thank god, alex reminded me
i gave some books to the sec twos la
as i don't need it for N levels next year

why did you even pek chek?
what did she do to make you angry?

me and tricia was chatting while sherlyn's on her phone
sherlyn's too forcus on her conversation
and she thought is the ground already, but there's two more steps
and she fell down and sprained her leg la
she cried okay, damn poor thing la
jenny leong helped her la haha
and so i've got to piggyback her
she's not heavy but her height and my height got a problem
somemore her legs got no energy
never automatically up one la
and until the bridge, i've got no strength
i put her down,
her legs have got no strength to support her whole body
so she went all the way down
one of her hand was still at my neck
means she's falling and i've to fall with her
and she's scared to have me to piggyback her already la haha
must thank me!

took cab to habourfront
went mac for lunch
me and tricia went to find job
found one in a cute shop la
it's called maameemoo haha
a lot of soft toys inside la, damn cute
imagine me and tricia work there
we will just play and ki hong the whole day la
but must wait for them to call la, my ah pa si liao
sherlyn left

left wendy, ginwei, tricia and me
ginwei haven't even got a job,
and she's dreaming of being a millionaire already la haha
we went to eat, and sat down in the middle of no where
people were looking, but who cares, small fry haha

it's the last day already, will i get to see you again?

into these open arms that long to surround you;

today (27/10/06)

woke up at 1000 plus, thanks to tricia
went online a while

went to meet xuanya at redhill mrt
then went to meet tricia outside tiong mac
we sat in bk and read the newspapers for jobs la
we tried texting, but our age is always a problem
too young, not experience either
so many boxes, read until i got headache la

we went bugis to find jobs
walked around, found nothing la, it's as if we're shopping
saw shihui and rena

then went vivo, saw shumei at breadtalk
then went to giant, and must wait for call again la
my ah ma si liao haha
saw quite a lot of stc girls

we walked through giant so we can go beside thai express
and look for evan, but can't see her at all

then don't know who say got kfc at vivo la, nonsensical

met them at rooftop, walked around
tricia left as she's having dinner with sherlyn

me and xuanya wanna go back to bugis again
to try kfc, but it's not worth la
then tried yoshinoya, they only hiring one
so we rejected, this is call friendship, how retarded haha

then went to tiong
i took mrt a lot of times today la, damn dizzy okay

you're in the middle, poor thing

met shixuan at great world bus stop
i didn't know great world so crowded eh
thank god, i didn't go

was texting someone the whole day,
my fingers are aching la
the more we don't talk, the more people will misunderstand
try forgiving, hating someone won't benefit you

why would i care for you so much suddenly?
i can't deny that...

i'll upload the photos tmr, my post kinda packed up

i don't want to...
but it's not my choice
maybe i'll leave ):

wo zai ye mei you ting dao ni de sheng ying le
wo zai ye mei you kan dao ni le
wo men hai hui lian luo ma
ni zai na li

you were never not exist, cause i'll hold you endlessly

you'd be the only thing that I would ever need;

I'VE GOT A LOT OF STUFFS TO BLOG!
be patient, i'll be back soon...

i would have given you all of my heart,
but there's someone who's torn it apart

monday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAICHENG!

after blogging went tiong

then went to great world
someone worked in the kitchen
that i can't see her la haha
she purposely don't wanna come out one la

But when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
When it come to loving me she's worst

yesterday

i was late again haha
cause i did things last minute la
thanks for tricia of the clothings that i'm gonna wear la

met liling, tricia and wendy in tiong
lunched

went to vivo
met sherlyn and her bf
they're watching movie

then met germaine they all
walked around, went to toy r us
someone's scared of the masks la
germainewong happily kicked my ass again la
watch out haha
they left to great world

then we brought lollipops and sushi
lots of laughters and fun la

met audrey they all
i didn't show attituide at all,
i just don't know what reaction should i give
then met xuanya
liling left
jiamin came
wendy, tricia and jiamin left
tricia went to meet sherlyn and her bf

me and xuanya went to rooftop, chit chat
it's windy
audreys came
the sun is dropping haha
the reflection of the sun in the water is nice la
it's like the sun floating in the water okay

went toys r us, funny eh

time to go home
and we were lost in the biggest shppoing mall of singapore la
and i was like telling xuanya about that two dramatic guys haha

i'm cold again, i need warmth, i'm weak already

reached home
watched princess hours
a cd only la, cause i'm tired

glad she's not angry, everything turns out miracle

still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried

today

i was sleeping and tricia called me
and she's sleeping too okay
it's as if we were talking in our dreams haha

met tricia
met audreys

went tiong bahru market for lunch
chit chat

went to tricia's house to watch princess hours
going town later, thanks to...
i didn't dress well la, expect me to go town la
and again thanks to...

oh wells i'm suppose to go to school for the first aid thing
cause i'm going for leadership module 2 camp
but i don't think i'm going already la
cause i don't wanna wear a dress, so ridiculous la

tomorrow back to school,
results are all coming out already la
i better be prepared

wo shi bu hui he wu fa de wang ji ni
wo hui ying man xia qu
yi mian gan qing bian fu zha

And I'm sure going to give you a try;

treasure the time, but yet i'm feeling...
sighs, shall not dwell so much
and this song can somehow describe how i feel

HOW DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU
we never needed each other
The best of friends like Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends

Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend The rest of my life
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall in love with you?

Those days are gone, and I want so much

friday

tricia lent me princess hours cds la haha

sexual talk early in the morning la
the pictures are damn disgusting la
me and liling just wanna sleep la

got english paper, wanna know my marks?
got the same as germainewong la

saw mr tan at the bus stop
me and ginwei hurried asked him
whether how good we did for our history papers la

went tiong, chat with germainewong
she kept telling me to relax la haha
and she kept counting the time la tsk, irritating haha

don't want my hug right? fine

i'm glad that i sort out things with you already
i followed what my heart says

i can't use computer already la
cause my parents want to see my report book first la
they are damn weird okay, haiyer

i'm damn tired at night, no energy to watch princess hours okay
don't feel like going anywhere the next day
just want to sleep as much as i can

i need someone to come along with me;

saturday

went out in the afternoon

my sister's friends were damn rude la
i want to scold them one okay
my parents stopped me la tsk

reached home too late, damn tired and sleepy la
no energy to watch princess hours la

i had nightmare that night,
i don't know why i will dream that, it's damn scary la
maybe i think of you too much,
till nightmare of you appeared

how did i fall in love with you;

sunday

watched princess hours, but only cd 1, episode 2
cause reached home too late
need to sleep one leh

don't want to be alone tonight;

today

met wendy for breakfast

changed file with tricia, it's okay to change
cause i like her file

went up to hall for assembly because of haze
geraldlyn showed me the photos of tricia and her
when they were young
damn funny okay haha!
i'll upload the photos when i'm free haha!

got our history papers

the geography pupils don't get their papers back
cause ms alieen loke adsent

got our f&n papers back, our practical will push us up yeah

listened to 'i'm a fool' from princess hours
from jingjing's phone, damn nice haha

went back to exam room, got back maths paper 2
shit la, i don't have the time to do that question la
i know how to do la!

ss lesson damn slacked okay

recess, walked around the school with zhenyi
went to canteen brought ice cream
i'm so naughty la, i showed people the photos okay haha
that two photos can make up a story la
just treat me as i've never exist, i understood
but do we have to be like this ever?

me, liling, ginwei and tricia danced a stupid indian dance la
with stupid actions damn retarded okay
"ah li shan di gu niang!"

history, mr tan didn't come up
went into the toilet, loneliness has always been a friend of mine
the reason is you. though i ask you go,
but truthfully my heart wants you by my side

got our chinese papers back, i'm shocked la
me and ginwei went to zhenyi's class
to get mp3 to listen haha, cause damn boring in class

played outside the class, my cheeks very fragile hor
and wanling, you suppose to side with me la
germainewong happily poured me water with a container la
then i gurped water and puke it on germainewong la haha
and she happily puke water at me also la
it went into my right ear, and my whole uniform wet okay

kana caught by mr ng, i thought he is cock eye one la
why suddenly so sharp?
me, liling and ginwei needed to go down to general office
to see mdm jenny leong la
but in the end, he was kind enough to let us go
at least, we apologised

germainewong they all don't believe
that we kana caught by mr ng,
and needed to go down to general office la
their faces totally shocked haha

after school going tiong or maybe great world
go great world di siao them working haha

tomorrow going out to watch movie and habourfront haha

isn't it be best that we're telling each other our problems now?
i feel more comfortable telling my problems to a stranger, thanks

i just don't like the feeling that we've to be apart and separated
that glance you gave me, i saw and i wouldn't forget
but i know we won't give up, we will overcome it together

sad day cauise i don't exist ):

what can i do, to make it right

I don't know what I should do,
don't want things to turn out this way either

last night, studied bio after offline
managed to study finish

i'm angry in the morning
she better don't ruin my mood

met wendy in the morning
met germaine and huiwen at the canteen
they pa dao bu si okay, reached school so early la
i guess they reached at 0600 la haha
i just kept looking at that direction

maths paper 1, totally screwed up

zhenyi, i just love that song!
kept repeating haha

germainewong tore my belt!
next time want to tear, then tear it on friday ma
so i got the time during weekends to sew ma
see la, later i need to burn midnight oil to sew my belt la
i very lazy one you know

me and yimei were almost late for papers la
we ran back okay
and it all thanks to germainewong for bullying me la

bio paper, i did finish haha
got a lot of time left okay
and i just can't sleep no matter how hard i try la
no position for a comfortable sleeping la

exams are over, but it's time for me to think

NIKITA, MARIA AND EVAN ARE NICE!!!
they are nice to bring tricia, wendy, ginwei and me
they were crazy on the bus la
to esplanade rooftop cause we don't know how
we will get lost one la haha

reached esplanade rooftop
the scenery was nice, but it's rather warm yeah

nikita, maria and evan left
so the four of us went to marina square kfc to have lunch
and happened to see the three of them there la
so fated haha
happy lunch with chattings and laughters

then we went to esplanade where there's sofa yeah
and the air-con is free flow one
i'm nice to give wendy one of my chip from my file la
cause is i caused her to lose her chip haha
i love the song 'how did i fall in love with you' haha
we were very crazy playing here and there haha
took a lot of retarded photos
i'll add the images when ginwei sent me haha

then sherlyn, liling, huiwen, lynn and germaine came
they went pasir panjang to the 18th level of hell haha
i also want to go one la but too bad cause it's last minute yeah
they played here and there again la haha
remember that you're not extra, don't think so much

oh wells, i've got no comments for you already
your mood and attitude just made me pek chek

we went with liling
sherlyn, lynn, huiwen and germaine went another way
sorry to keep you all waiting
liling left

then the four of us went tiong
went to more than words, ginwei wants to buy lollipop

then went to popular
you know the tiong's popular no camera one haha
i was trying to ahem one of the chip la
i'm not naughty, i'm guai
but it looks wierd for a file with only one chip
i just can't stand it cause my things just kept dropping out haha
but all the files were wrap up with plastic la
can't expect me to tear the plasic right haha

then watched goong at first level
damn funny okay haha
tricia brought the cds already
she's lending me tmr haha
cause i'm nice to change file with her
so that the cds can be put in my file
cause my file is bigger yeah

then i left
was of course, a penny of my thoughts in the bus la
i rather take 970
slept in the bus la, i'm so damn tired

reached home just in time for goong!

don't have to apologise at all
she just have to bear the consequences herself la

tomorrow checking both english and mt papers, i guess

today got a lot of people online la haha

maybe i should not let the past hold me back
walking straight forward and not turning back
discover and experience new things
just treasure the time,
who knows what will happen to our tomorrows

is tomorrow a starting or ending?

i thought today's a relax day for me but my plan got screwed up
i won't blame anyone, maybe it's fated...
):

falling so hard, so fast this time

if you were mine;

yesterday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUE TONG!

last night, after i went offline
went to study
while studying, i fell asleep without me myself noticing
all the way till morning la
i slept in a very uncomfortable position la haha

today

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKITA!

met wendy for breakfast
luckily she didn't woke up late haha
i'm so confused with accounts okay

how butter study when i bought her accounts notes home?
haha poor thing

i guess it's not a need for me to go up already

accounts paper
okay totally screwed up the whole thing

and let's talk about germainewong again!
i ran to her and wanted to hit her head with my ss notes
in the end, i didn't aim properly cause her head was too small
and i bang into her, both she and her file FELL! HAHA!
it's damn funny okay and i don't owe her a file
she has to blame herself for not holding the file
properly and tight enough haha

social studies paper
i just write as much as i can la
i thought i couldn't finish in time la,
actually i still got extra time la haha
i used history's tactics,
don't know whether is it correct or not la
at least i done the whole paper la

after school
zhenyi, xuanya and me went bonkers la
they forced me to go bukit merah okay haha
zhenyi wants me to go bukit merah,
cause can accompany her to wait for her bus for her to go home la

went to the bus stop
i was speaking alien's language
kuojiarui! don't bully my boyfriend!
and chelsy will say "don't bully my girlfriend!" haha
damn funny and retarded la
was running everywhere at the bus stop la

in the bus
xuanya, zhenyi and me went bonkers la
we chat and LAUGHED alot la
i'm always kana bullied by them one la haha
zhenyi left, her bus number is 'yi gong sa' haha

me and xuanya went kfc
lunched with our favourite chilli sauce haha
and studied bio
we were very crazy also la
i guess we chat and laugh most of the time la

from bukit merah walked to redhill
cause xuanya stay there
and i from redhill walked to tiong la
means i walked from bukit merah to tiong la
i don't know why, but i just feel like walking
a penny of my thoughts

distance drifted both of us apart
i'm forcing myself to do the things that i hate
it's obviously my fault only, blame me, sorry

tomorrow's bio and maths paper 1
my bio notes is 'yi lor' one la
i'm so gonna sleep with my notes later la

and if you don't know, what's stopping me,
the reason is you
i don't want the past to hold me back, but i've got no choice

nah i guess i don't need anyone
cause maybe what she said is true...
no one else know the answer except myself
maybe i feel that way, but just unsure

i'll go somewhere tomorrow after my papers
to relax myself and discover the new place

bad day as i forced myself to do the things that i dislike
)':

that promise, i'm still waiting for you, it's not the ending

baby, time is all i need, not as if we're gonna get married

haiyer, i wanted to publish my post
and it went page can't be display la, irritating

summary...

i hate germainewong's blog!

somehow, i'm tired already

who wants tricia as daughter and sherlyn as wife la
sherlyn asked me a question...
she - "what's the first letter for the word 'idiot'?
me - "i"
she - "haha you're an idiot!"
me - "-_-!"

i pulled germaine's hair till i dragged her on the floor
and she cried haha

chemistry paper
all the questions looked familiar to me
but i forgot the answer
as i don't remember what i memorize la

my cheeks damn red la
and thanks to huiwen, germaine and lynn

maths paper
who the hell set the paper?!
i'm so gonna kill that stupid idiot teacher la
so many errors on the paper okay
waste my time, i KNOW how to do that two flasks question,
but i have got no time to finish ):
filled with regrets

at the bus stop
saw chelsy and xuanya, and they bullied me
plus the idiots, huiwen, germaine, lynn and liling la
liling, you supposed to side with me okay

went tiong
i don't want to retype the whole story again la
quite a gathering la
got huiwen, lynn, germaine, liling, jiamin,
charmaine, xuewen, wendy, tricia, ginwei and me
met melissa, alicia and priswong
melissa can scream VERY loud okay
alicia damn pathetic
me and priswong just kept listening to mp3
ate cake with tricia

it's a small thing, i can't even be bothered
if it's really true, i also can't do anything

went to rajah inn twice
tricia, wendy and me damn noisy, playful and active la

i don't care what other people say

i guess i'm not late la
saw kellyann on the bus la, i almost wanted to greet her okay
cause she looks like cheyenne la

i don't know what i'm thinking
if it's true, i'll let go

saw something on the bus, on the way home
maybe it's always what i hope for it to happen
or maybe filled with regrets

tomorrow is wednesday already ):

if you don't know, that girl is you
are you still there for me?

need to go study my accounts and social studies already
maybe i'll be tonning for the sake of my dearest papers

in love's dictionary, can't find forever

she never treasure till the boat sank;

i can online only for awhile

early in the morning in the lrt and mrt,
was memorizing history notes like crazy la

met huiwen at the mrt
but she's waiting for someone
and guess who i saw, germainewong la
and she happily kicked my ass again okay
huiwen's mouth was totally shut one la
germaine also don't know how to run to catch the bus la
and she happily blamed me for not running la tsk

met wendy late, don't blame me
blame your nu er, germainewong

history paper
i was rushing like crazy la
used up the four foolscap papers okay
my hand damn pain la, but i managed to finish on time
ginwei is pa dao bu si one la
she write like story book that amount of words la
the history people just likes to write, isn't it?

break time, studied f&n
zhenyi, tricia and sherlyn came into our class
our class became noisy, it's of course one la
me and tricia shared a book la
oh wells, i strangled sherlyn la haha
germaine's hair is long, nice to pull eh
wah she pulled my hair okay, damn pain la
it's a way of good luck eh

f&n paper
it's easy la, i just anyhow write la
tricia said if the paper didn't do well, is okay
practical can pull our marks up
cause the paper is just only 40 marks
after our whole class finished our papers
the teacher collect already la
our class started the paper the latest and end the fastest la
haha damn cool

after school, went to tiong
went to sweettalk to buy my coffee ice blended
long time didn't drink it already la
then went to study with xuanya at bk
we forcus on chemistry more than on maths
and i forgot to help hr buy meal la haha
chat A LOT too
saw wendy and tricia

walked xuanya to the bus stop, i'm nice
chat again, totally chat with her for the whole day la
it's nice to chat with her la
and she suppose to tell me...during the holidays
i just hate things like that to happen but i know it's uncontrollable
i won't blame anyone that made that mistake...

went back to bk
joined tricia and wendy to be ki hong
lynn and huiting came

went to great world, two bus 75 gone la
i still owe rebecca a meal la tsk
someone was doing maths on the bus la
she's cock eye la
GOONG!

i just don't want to talk about us, don't wanna be upset
i'm willing to stay for you, if you ask me to

i'm almost sure already, but where the last missing piece go?

tomorrow, chemistry and maths papers la
die

stop reminding me, i don't want to remind myself
cause i'll be lost ):
i'll just follow what my heart says
listen to my heart, the answer lies in you, girl

i'll email that story to you and just for you,
hope you will understand
i'll blog that story when i'm free

the first cut is to be the deepest
when comes to loving me, she's worst

yet she's still living in the past;

i don't understand what i'm going through;

friday, after blogging
tricia, wendy, ginwei and me were damn high la
went tiong, met liling
lunched in kopitiam
me and tricia damn hungry la haha

i don't wanna say goodbye to you

i saw the moon

maybe they're just playing, they're just childish
don't blame yourself no more
i can understand how you feel

you made the loneliness easy to bare;

weekends

i felt better already cause i'm strong
studied history, f&n and chemistry like siao la
cause i'm scared... ):
i bet they are serious this time, i can't do anything

while studying, a penny for my thoughts
what will happen this coming friday?

i thought i've the answer already,
but it changed again, tell me what to do
should i ignored what people say or do?
i don't want troubles or problems about you
cause i just want to have a simple life with you

i don't want to see you like that, it hurts me
i want you to be happy that why i sacrificed
you can always come find me, talk to me about your problems
like what i said, i'll still be there for you no matter what
i know you still need me badly cause i need you badly too
i need someone to talk to too ):

where're you? sighs ):

in any moment when you're me;

though we're apart, but our hearts yearn to belong

yesterday, after blogging

me, wendy and ginwei went tiong
lunched in bk
saw xuanya and evangeline
i want that song lyrics
met tricia
ginwei can't bare to leave us haha

i kept sneezing la
i guess i spread the virus to wendy la haha
actually wanna go home early...

I'M NOT SICK!
YOU'RE THE MENTAL SICK ONE! HAHA

glad you're relaxed and you didn't think much (:

last night, not feeling well
so slept at 2100

no answer in the sky anymore;

today

woke up, not feeling really well
a lot of msges came in last night
oh wells, headache okay
flu and cough worsened la

met huiwen at the mrt
saw a girl was damn rude to her mother, i guess
met up with wendy
breakfast, fever is up

maybe i shouldn't even notice you
maybe i shouldn't even go up
talk to her can help you

you're mean to her okay, too obvious already,
i guess i need to talk to you again
guess you will be irritated again

chinese paper 1 was okay, dan xin
but i feel like fainting already okay
i want to sleep la, but i got to finish my paper first
headache la

break, went down with zhenyi
but i've got no energy to play ball, i feel tired
came up again, listened to mp3

chinese paper 2 was also okay la
the answer were obvious la
i feel damn tired again la, but the more i sleep,
the more my head will aches

stayed back in school to blog

what happen to you?
the glance you gave me, is full of uncertainty
i don't know how to explain, but i want to know what happen to you
i want to help you

i can't blame you for anything
the more i hate you, the more i...
if you didn't notice, people are coming into our way
i don't even dare to look at you already
in the crowd, i can't find you already
i don't even know where're you already

i'm feeling damn terrible
maybe...

):

how can i mend the mistakes that hurts you;

don't know which way you go;

wendy only diao one person and that's me!

yesterday after blogging

went tiong, charmaine went home
left me, ginwei and wendy
went to kfc for lunch
sherlyn, tricia and lynn came
lynn left
sherlyn and ginwei left

left me, wendy and tricia
damn high okay, were like laughing instead of studying la
all sorts of jokes la
me and tricia bullied wendy okay haha

i told one of the no reason to you
maybe you will think it's not the way in the future
but that is what i feel and i know it'll happen
i don't want you to sacrifice anything or lose anything

last night, i didn't sleep well, sighs
i had flu

yet i'm still living in the past;

today

huiwen met me at the bus stop in the morning
i guess wendy woke up late
so me and huiwen went school first

germainewong happily kicked my ass la tsk

today's clouds and sunrise are nice
i looked at it during morning assembly

tired during ss, want to sleep

did letter formating during chinese

listened to mp3 and reading comics during maths la
ms sim caught me reading comics only haha
cause she can't see my earpiece, it's black

outside class during bio, ms chen won't teach la
alone time is needed

germainewong painted my face la! tsk
somemore yellow colour okay
then all the 'good' people happily locked me and her in a class la
oh wells, can bully her more haha
her volume for screaming is no need money one la
damn loud okay tsk, i'm going deaf soon
her finger bleed, she deserve it haha!

went down to the canteen
but me and charmaine never eat
so we came up
saw sherlyn and tricia
they gang up and slapped me okay
then they happily pulled my sleeves okay la
each one side la, my right sleeve is gonna tear soon haha

liling, wendy and ginwei came up
ginwei opened a packet of cuttlefish
then the cuttlefish fly la
luckily, liling caught it and so i saw a flying cuttlefish!

liling helped me take revenge on sherlyn haha
i was playing wendy's wallet, throwing up and down
and i sat near the railing
and so the third time i threw up , it dropped down haha
but luckily it never get stuck, it dropped on the first level
so wendy ran down like dash la
and so she got the wallet haha

tired during f&n la, revision day okay
i slept and so wendy helped me to find the answers
the second time, she supposed to sleep and i find the answers
but haha you all should know my character la

found a volleyball in the class
and so me and charmiane played while mrs ong never notice
and so got a time, i threw the ball damn hard,
cause i didn't know it's a light ball and so i used an amount of force
quite a lot of strength, so throw quite hard
and it hit mrs ong's back la
the second time, mrs ong went out
so we got the ball and played again,
this time elaineyeo and yimei played la haha, they got activate
while i'm on the motion of throwing, elaineyeo said she's back la
and got scolded by her la
anyway apologised to her la yeah

now i'm blogging in school
and ginwei got processed la
she's laughing to herself by the phrase,
"hah ka la ba, ba su ka" haha

my flu worsen la, i kept sneezing oklay
means a lot of people is missing me la haha

i'm glad i settled one problem already
i've walk out of the darkness already
i'm brave to do anything i want, i did it without much thinking
enjoyed the moments now, communication went up and not down
but i'm still hiding...

you didn't really tell me anything
each day i'll tell you one reason for why
but why should i even tell you all those stupid reasons?
maybe i just want you to know
what can i do besides waiting
i don't know whether i'm ready or not, still confused
i'll get my feelings right soon, i guess
i know you're ready already but give me some more time
i'm still unsettled, unensured, and insercure
if you don't wish to tell, then don't tell
i won't force you, i'm anything
cause something changed already, if you didn't notice
i didn't tear away the letter but don't wish to show you

tomorrow exams starts already, it's time to concentrate
but soon, exams will pass, and it's time i'll think after that
sighs ):

i won't dare to look into your face anymore;

don't know how to face you;

yesterday, after blogging

went tiong
liling, tricia, wendy, ginwei and me were crazy la
laughed like siao la
oh wells, i don't know what cause the change

germainewong messed up my hair! watch out!

stupid aunty on the bus!
i don't know what i should say, so i kept quiet
maybe cause i can't share your burdens with you,
that why i hate myself a lot
if you don't know, my heart hurts )':

i want to help you but i don't know how
cause somehow you're troubled and stressed already
anyway it's your life, it's the path you chose
be responsible for it and bear the consequences

from yesterday till now, i've waited
but still you can't speak it out, i won't blame you
maybe i'm not fated to even know
or maybe i don't want to know, i don't know what i'm feeling

loneliness has always been a friend of mine;

today

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOSSIE!

all the lessons for today were slack
that why got quite a lot of people absent

i'm suppose to meet wendy in the morning
but because of huiwen la tsk
helped lin to buy coke
someone's on the bus too haha

reached school, breakfast
don't angry alrights, i'm sorry, it won't happen again

i don't know how to face you ):

germainewong's class next to mine eh, watch out haha
very tired during f&n, want to sleep

wanru ginwei and i talked about sex la
how interesting eh, ginwei and wanru are experience okay haha

english slacked
went toilet, just want to be alone yeah

mrs wong wasn't here for accounts and so here comes mdm soh
can't be bothered with her
someone's so bored eh, msged me la haha

we went down cause today's bball day
but no ball, the doors were all locked
so went up, and HIGH lo
i just love exam homeroom haha
i don't know how to face everyone, sorry ):
so i went MIA
chat with geraldlyn
they found me
don't be angry alrights, i'm sorry for not telling you all

pc did some drawing and relax thing
i helped geraldlyn to draw sun and book la haha

time to slack for bio, outside loitering
went back class cause teacher from other class complained
ginwei and charmaine made us laughed in class la
wendy and i video-ed down la haha
i bet when wendy's down, she will watch and can cheer her up la
liling's a bookworm haha

after school, going tiong later

hide also no use
why do we kept looking at each other?
i can see something in your eyes when i look at you,
it made me feels...

i've got reasons for everything, soon you will know
why, why and why. i also don't know why
i just did it cause my heart tells me so
like what you said, you're hurt and pain inside
is not because of me, and i don't know when you're telling the truth
you're telling me all sorts of different stories,
i don't know to believe what
till now, i don't know what's with my feelings
perhaps, it's time i'll learn to feel what you're feeling
but i'm always forcing myself to go against the tides
...cause i care how you feel...
i'll make you happy no matter what sacrifices
i'll learn to wait, i want to feel what you're feeling

maybe i neglected people around me
i don't know how to face everybody already
i'll feel bad, guilty or even regretted
my answers just keep changing,
cause i react to what's happening
and not feelings, i don't know, just don't know
exams will only be for a week,
time is running out, i got to think fast already

since you came into my life, everything have changed

oh wells, my parents don't let me use computer already
cause exams la tsk
so i had to trouble myself to find computer outside la

just a second, my answer will change

yesterday

someone peeped at me during morning assembly la haha

school was okay la
lazy to blog

after school
waited for princess huiwen la
and i finished wendy's drink without me myself knowing la haha

stupid germainewong pushed me,
while i was walking down the stairs la
kicked me somemore la tsk
watch out, i'll have my revenge haha

went tiong
lunched at ljs
someone was in mac okay
anyway we can't find any place to study
so went to mac to study
follow what your heart says, since she's always on your mind
i'll promise you that i WON'T WON'T WON'T like her

went home
wanted to say goodbye, some idiot kicked me again la
i want to pull her hair one okay, hair so short tsktsk haha
it's the best to stay this way, i like it

went great world, two 75s gone la
waited like for so long okay
i shouldn't have said anything,
i shouldn't have disturb you, sorry

i'm stubborn, just let me walk the path alone
cause i'm used to it already

friends forever!

i've reasons for everything
i shouldn't have said anything so nothing will happen
but i want you to know my thoughts

happy day yet sad with bad ending

i can't feel the love, maybe it shouldn't even be

today

someone peeped at me again haha
and someone looked at her okay

exam homeroom!

ms phee gave us sweets for children's day la

pe was fun
our class played captain's ball with 4B
imagine 60 plus people fight for a ball?!
oh wells, we played two balls, damn fun okay haha
but 4B got more people la, so we ran like crazy okay

recess was fun, germainewong's belt was with me
oh wells, i'm very good at sewing okay
my perspiration is full of 'love' okay haha (copied from huiwen)
zhenyi supposed to side me la,
and she happily poured water on me infront of me la
next time i'll have a bottle of ICE LEMON TEA with me
so i can pour on someone,
since she used mineral water only haha

oh wells, people don't have to worry about me
i'm used to it already
i'll only tell myself to bare with her but not because of her,
take it as a small fry or pretend nothing happen yeah
i've got no comments already

i'm bareing it, but once i can't bare already
i don't know what i'll do when i'm angry
i guess only germainewong knows, can go ask her

the more you all remind me, the more i'll think

i'm tired during accounts okay

oh wells how i wish i could say "everything's my fault" la
but i hate that phrase

i'm so scared that i'll turn back again
but i'll force myself to keep walking and not turn back anymore

how you want me to understand how you feel
when you're not telling me anything
like what i promised you, i won't think much, i won't be hurt
it's time to blurt out everything
but if you choose to keep it deep inside you, then okay lo
i won't force you to say everything out cause i know it's hard
i can't deny that i don't want to know
don't you cry, my shoulder's always there for you
you don't have to help me, don't have to be hurt cause of me
cause the answer will only come out from the bottom of MY heart
i'm just so scared of things, something's bothering me
but i don't know what exactly it is, cause it keeps going on and off
the fact is, i just don't understand

the amount of time that we two spend alone is just not enough
cause i want to understand you more, be by your side more often
sometimes i did things without feelings, i don't know
or maybe it's fading, sighs

):

i can see the words 'give up' in your eyes;

i turn around and found you there;

TRICIA'S NICE! THANK YOU!
happy children's day, but still there's school tomorrow

woke up at 1200 plus just to catch that drama okay
or else i'll sleep longer

lunched

went to my uncle's house
henry grown up already la

then went to supermarket to get stuffs
chocolates! made me remind of someone haha
blacker than me somemore

reached home
my chocolates melted and it's smashed okay
oh wells refrigerator will help haha

studied my chemistry

why am i so free to tell you all those things?
i want you to understand her
or else i wouldn't say all those things to you
if people around me happy, i'll be happy
how i wish i could slap her to make her realise that
she should treasure the things around her
i just don't love her no more,
so i don't have any reasons to be sad because of her

if you think that i should let go, how about you?
tell her how you really feel inside
if it's like that, in the first place you shouldn't have...
i want to leave without regrets so we will be happy

are you sure you still wanna walk that path with me?
it's very tough and you may fall anytime,
if you fall, are you willing to let me piggyback you,
and continue with that path with me?

i'm so scared that i will hurt you more in the future
that why i warned you before, but you seems to ignore
i'm the weakest now, please be strong to make me strong
in order for yourself to be strong, please be happy
how i wish i could say...
but still i'm confused and scared
i don't wish to be the one that change you

tomorrow's schooling, is it a good or bad thing?
sometimes i do hate mondays, i'll feel weird when i see you

your emotions can kill any fools;

THAT WHY YOU GO AWAY
Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

Chorus: I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

Chorus: I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

Chorus: I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know