Friday, September 29, 2006

From the skies above, to the deepest love

my blogger's damn irritating okay

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIALI!

woke up damn early la
have to meet liling for breakfast at tiong mac at 0600 la
but she woke up late!
so met wendy for breakfast instead
wendyng's nice! thank you!
she made her way from home to tiong and back home la,
just because of me! haha
ginwei came, she take away mac cause we were late already
saw mr patrick

i felt energentic
at the bus stop saw someone okay

we climbed over the fence la
met them at school backgate bus stop
took bus to the church

was quite cooling la
felissa, liling and me sang okay
damn high la haha
i screamed quite a lot of times la
don't be angry alrights? she didn't mean it
high pitch made yimei and geraldlyn mad haha
when i saw the lyrics of IJ spirit, i screamed la
cause me and liling was hoping for that song la
cause we wanna sing yeah
wendyng cried! triciayeo where're you? i don't know how to deal
ginwei almost kiss my hand la, and so i screamed
don't worry, i didn't blame you

walked back to school
recess for one hour
played ball, was happy cause our group was committed la
don't have to be angry
played ball again, most seniors were here
lazy to run, never play seriously la
don't want to be rough

what happen to you?

never bring worksheet for accounts though mrs wong reminded us before
i guess i forgot la, cause i'm always not playing attention yeah
she chased us out of class, i'm fine with it la
cause it's cooling outside and can chat
jiaping's nice to help us photocopy twenty pages okay haha

me and liling wanted to go to sick bed
but scared that they will chase us home
instead of letting us go to sick bed

don't have to run away
i felt tired during chemistry
studied a little only
ms phee's nice to let us rest

slacked during ss

after school rushed to backgate,
ginwei went to wendy's house to bath
the bus took ten years to reach
me and liling went to charmaine's house to bath
as we were dirty, sticky and smelly after playing ball
liling lai ang haha
she wanted to blog but the page can't be displayed haha
sometimes blogger is really irritating la
charmaine helped me style my hair

we went to tiong to meet ginwei and wendy

looked for that girl first la, very big huh
talk so much, in the end she's in bk la, malu-ed

wanted to have lunch in foodcourt,
but met sherlyn and tricia at griller,
so in the end had lunch in griller

me and liling went to mrt, wah i saw flying lollipop la
if the lollipop never break,
i'll give you 3, clap, 4, clap, 5, clap, ... clap, 10
her friend not loud what, malu-ed

went back to griller, happily eating, chatting and laughing la haha

ginwei and charmaine wanted to play ddr
a lot of people looked, and thinks that ginwei's good
and indeed she's good

sherlyn's nice to buy me and tricia each a piglet ball haha

lynn they all came, lynn's drunk and her face was damn red la
she asked a lot of questions too

time flies fast, went to great world
missed the big smile again
the chocolate's watery la, disgusting, go drink it haha
menstruation, banana leave haha
it's the first time, i felt fortunate
my hand's always cold, i need warmth from you
i don't like the feeling of walking that path alone
i need your accompany to walk with me

judytan's a pig, and triciayeo's not

don't tell anyone what i told you

i don't want to go out tmr, i'm tired and lazy
i want to sleep like a pig,
after exams, i'll enjoy but now i need to study first

are you really happy with your life now?
why suffer? our separation has it's faults
don't force yourself to do the things that you dislike
don't make a deal with me when you can't do it
the feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
that why you go away i know

maybe i'll be happier with you, i don't know
i enjoyed every second with you, treasure the time with you
i'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still

i still don't know what my heart really wants
i won't let anyone know how i feel inside

happy day that i always wanna feel (:

the days before all fade to black and white;

you're the one that set it up,
you're the one that make it stop

i'm not tired in the morning la
i don't know why
very energentic haha

met wendy for breakfast
i brought only file haha
looking at the hardcourt for you

i like the way we are now, i guess

english paper one
i chose question __ for composition , it made me think a lot
letter writing was okay
i've got one hour to rest la, most of my classmates still doing okay
woke up, and i got headache okay

no maths lesson so left with bio
listened to mp3 and chat lo
ms chen never teach us anything but just revision paper la

don't feel like eating
i'm sorry but i really don't want to go down,
but not because of them yeah
i'm addicted to two songs okay haha
that turtle's tail cute eh

english paper two
i spent too much time on passage A la
was like rushing for passage B and summary
the time was just nice
and i got mixed up with questions and answers la
mdm sou damn funny okay

no f&n lesson

was rather quite a relax and slack day la

was crazy at the bus stop okay
huiwen and lynn kept molesting me and liling la

took bus to tiong, amandatan was inside
and i never lie to her okay haha
the way we communicate is much better already
but i felt weird weird one

huiwen left
we went to kfc to have lunch
sherlyn they all went to rajah inn to eat steamboat
we helped ginwei to finish her food haha
i spilled her drink haha

went to suona, but yun nan is renovating yeah
so went to find sherlyn they all
i don't know why i would save her first,
cause that's what my heart says
went to third level suona, it's cooling inside
why suddenly asked that question? me and her felt weird la
chit chat, lynn's extra haha
they came

went to fourth level, don't know who wants to dance la
can't be bothered, so i went to rooftop but i'm not sad yeah
quite windy, wendy and ginwei left
they came
i'm sorry, it's my fault again
i was sitting on the wall, and lynn pulled my penafore
i almost fall backwards, so i grabbed onto anything
that can make me balance la, and i grabbed onto sherlyn's ahem la
and tricia was hugging my legs la haha
got more funny things happened la, damn funny okay
got a guy asked for sherlyn's handphone number okay
and lynn was dragged in too haha
huiwen came, they suddenly wanna know my sister's name okay

they went town
left tricia, sherlyn, lynn and me
i treated sherlyn ice-cream la
cause i pulled her penafore, she saved my life haha
i guess i said something wrong, i didn't know anything, oops

went to great world, she's kana bullied haha
was high and crazy la haha
i'll make you happy no matter how sad you are

i want to hug you from the back

don't be troubled over this thing, don't go back to the past
let it be natural, maybe it won't turn out as what you think
just have private talk with her, maybe she's waiting, she will understand
maybe she don't want you to be in the middle, she cares for you still
not a close friend but yet a friend still

i love the feeling of warmth, but once i let go, i felt cold or even frozen
i don't like the feeling of letting go, my heart feels weird
i don't want to leave you, i want to stick with you every second
if you want to cry, my shoulder is always for you

tomorrow's another slack day
oh wells, i'm fine with anything as long as people around me is happy

don't have to tear when the day that we need to separate,
our separation has it's faults

i don't know why i will save you first,
cause that's what my heart says
or maybe to me, you're always weak

have you ever thought, what if one day...
i'm not by your side anymore?
i'm not there to cheer you up and make you happy?
you can't feel the warmth anymore?
i ignore and avoid you?
i were to walk away and leave you alone?
i just don't ____ you no more?

i just want to treasure the time
how i wish i could make that question without answer
but somehow i think i can't live without her already

happy day with laughs (:

you were never satisfied, no matter how i try

Watashitachi wo osou kedo
Dore mo suteki na tabi ne

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS PHEE!

i've got a lot of lyrics to post but not today

met wendy for breakfast
liling came early today

i want to sleep during f&n la

we like each other, but can't or cannot be together

slept during english
GUILT!

me and elaine just rushed through our accounts homework la

it's bball day today!
played bball, oh wells i'm losing interest already
maybe cause you were the distraction

did some IJ girls thingy for pc la
write a composition of 150 words or draw, so i chose to draw
haha funny la, gwen's one more funny okay
mdm lim helped her somemore la haha
and mdm lim can't draw for nuts la haha

slacked during bio, chat with liling la
listened to mp3, and ms chen don't care la haha
ghosts~

stayed back in school to study with xuanya
wong and tan went tiong to buy things
chat with xuanya and studied maths
it's been hard on you

tan and wong came back, liling came, xuanya left
we got crazy and i know i can't concentrate one
so i went to use computer and the internet went wrong la

me and liling went to canteen, and it's totally empty
met lin at the foyer
i don't want to play with them, i don't want conflicts, sorry
but i guess you feel that way too

i'm happy today, mood never get affected by anything
got high and crazy, kept laughing like some mad cow
oh wells, it's the first time i hit her haha
how i wish i could be by your side always
can't bare to leave you, not even a second

went to cut hair, so short and my hair is all sticking up la

i never heard before, oh wells, just don't care what other people say

maybe that will be one of the reasons that i will say ___

english paper tmr!

what's your wish? what you addicted to?
maybe we're really a mistake, i'm confused with what my heart says
i thought i let you go already, but you're making me soft again
maybe i'm just so not happy inside

i have reasons for everything but i'm confused, i don't know
i scared i'll regret if i walk away now, but i just wanna stay the same
i can't stand the feeling that you're not beside me, even a second
i want to be by your side always, i want to feel your presence

happy day with a warm hug (:

Kurayami ni omoe takedo
mekaku shisarete tadake

There must be a plan that lead me to you
Because the hurt just disappears

met wendy for breakfast
the three of them plus liling came to school damn early la
just to run around the tracks okay
twelve rounds la
hillary happily washed my nametag in the washing machine la
how clean haha

i lent zhenyi one nametag and mrs lau caught her la
and guess whose nametag is that? haha
don't quarrel because of her, not worth it

ms phee never come to school today!
two periods of slacked chemistry
played bingo and tac tac toe with geraldlyn
listened to mp3 and xuewen came to draw on my hands la
me and liling went to talk to zhenyi and wong
they hate their bio teacher ms chen la
i can understand how you feel

i forgot all the previous maths topics already la

played floorball during pe, had test
i'm so gonna fail, i can't play for nuts

alex was absent today, she's ill
played ball with lin during recess
we kept disturbing each other la haha so funny

something happened during cme
liling was playing with her lip stud
xuewen came in late,
and she showed a funny face behind lee ting ting's back
liling saw and she swallowed the stud okay haha
then she was sent home
so she went to see doctor with her brother haha
cause lee ting ting wants a medical certfiticate
ginwei's language is full of actions la, damn funny

i realised i didn't do all my homework for accounts la

xuewen sat beside me during mt cause liling's gone
and she drew my textbook okay, anyway it's nice yeah
thanks, but it will never exist anymore

went to tiong to have lunch
to avoid hatred

at the bus stop, damn crazy okay
sherlyn liling wendy ginwei tricia and me
we wanna take cab haha
sherlyn treated us what haha
sherlyn liling tricia and me, one cab
ginwei and wendy another cab cause we were rushing
and never organise properly yeah
and amandatan and zhihui bullied me okay
amandatan kicked my ass! haha

went to kfc for lunch
ginwei left for tuition, her tuition book with me la
left liling tricia wendy and me
we played stupid games like don't move and don't laugh
it's impossible la, and don't blink our eyes la haha
all of us almost teared okay, laughed till crazy la
wendy's cousin and friends were there la
we laughed damn loud till everyone looked at us la
there's no straw in wendy's cup
she looked at us and she tried to bite her straw
when there's no straw la, so retarded haha
i've got a hello kitty's calender haha

tricia went home, we took 195, wendy went home
me and liling went back to school

i guess i should have stay back in tiong and study with others
i've to pretend nothing have happen ):

i really want to go find you
but i don't want your mood to be affected by me,
and since you want to be alone, i don't want to disturb you

a hug made you feel better, but i'm not feeling better,
i'm feeling miserable inside, i won't let you see my weakest side
don't want to look at you, i scared i'll tear

why hide your feelings towards me?
you're making me soft again
what if i tell you, i'm not happy at all?

i don't know how/don't want to tell you how i feel
but everything seems wrong day after day
we did all the things that we're not suppose to, i guess
maybe sometimes i did it without feelings
from the bottom of my heart, i don't know how i feel about you

sad day with misunderstandings ):

Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart

close my eyes and dream a little more;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERMAINEWONG!

i realised there's a lot of people's birthday today la

met wendy for breakfast
rushed just to see whether you're alright
sorry for being late

the sky was filled with dark clouds
went to hall for assembly

liling jingjing and wanling got caught for play
long ago, i could see that ms sim was noticing them already la

slept during english
was totally lost, asked butter and kaya
they were really funny la haha

yimei my 'HEH PARTNER!' haha
we made noises again
got scolded by ms sim, but it's fun okay

slacked during ss

lin got a present for germaine
wendy helped me got the digital dictionary
i just want to get close you

did presentation for history

went to cyberhome for chinese
read five composition, and i chose one haha
chatted a lot with sherlyn
then mr ng needed go for oral,
so our class became a messed
i'm running here and there outside the class la haha
maybe that's the reason why i hate you the most

stayed back after school
xuanya helped me with my maths
i've got my own reasons for not going, sorry ):

chat a lot with xuanya
maybe i just can't stand it
i got retarded with the both of them la
their heart dropped on the tree la
and it got tangled with the leaves okay
so it's impossible to take it down already
and they made me throw a broom okay
oh wells, my sleeves are getting longer alreay la tsk haha

i dropped audrey's digital dictionary okay
went all the way down just to take it la

needed to go home early today la, stupid dad
i thought i could see the sunset, but i guess it's too early
i'm very sad, maybe that's the time when i needed a shoulder badly
i've never lie on anyone's shoulder before, never felt so comfortable before
you made me feel better, a hug next time (:

as i think, you're still a good friend to me

geraldlyn got a secret admirer haha

chat with alina, long time never see her already okay

i'm glad, we behaved normally, that's the best
i thought i could make you happy today, i'm sorry

i've never been so close to someone before, i felt the warmth in you
you gave me a sense of secure but uncertainty doubts
i want to be harsh on you, but you're making me soft everytime
whenever i'm with you, that's the time i won't think anyhow,
i can be myself and feel the meaning of true love

uncertainty doubts making me feel like giving up
nothing to say the day she left,
just filled yesterdays full of regrets,
looking for some pace to ease the pain

sad day ):

let me say this words before i go;

how much i trusted you;

last night chatted with geraldlyn
geraldlyn - "i know a lot of things at one shot, how to smile?"
me - "move the corners of your mouth up"
and she really laughed till she got stomachache la haha
i'm glad i can cheer her up when she's sad la

chatted with xuanya, she's my counsellor
i'll learn to be heartless. oh wells, tell me when the time is ripe

i can only say, you changed

can't sleep cause i slept a lot yesterday
and so infront of the television until 0200 plus
it's worth for the sake of love, don't be lost

what if it really happens to the both of us?

woke up to reply msges
and i can't go back to sleep anymore
why do i wait without destination? no reason, not worth

had my lunch, then studied till evening
my sister was damn irritating la, kept distracting me
but she's funny haha

maybe you just wouldn't know what i want

how i wish i could be blind, i just can't stand it
why are you saying this and doing that? why are you lying?

just one of my msg will cause the both of you to tragedy and misery
if i know all this will happen, i wouldn't be so stupid and dumb,
cause sometimes feelings from heart is uncontrollable
i felt very guilty, i didn't mean it, i'm sorry

in the past, are you really serious about it?
i thought you were playing only

dinnered

put on a falsemask tomorrow,
the sight of you make me soft

maybe now, i can feel how you feel in the past,
it's miserable, i'm sorry )':

i felt neglected, i'm not rubbish
when you don't need me, you throw me away and get a new one
and when you don't have anyone, and needed someone
then you realised only me is here for you, and you retrieve it back
i'm sorry but this is how i feel, i'm giving up already
you're so hard to hold on, just go

maybe i think too much, maybe i'm selfish, maybe i'm sensitive
but cause i want you, i just don't want you to know
again and again, you stab me without me noticing
i just can't stand the pain, forget it, i guess i'll have the answer soon

why must is it be you? ):

i'm so in love with the old you, changed

maybe i can't turn back anymore, like the past

last night, time was passing fast cause talking was too slow
so tried talking fast with laughing haha
she laughed to herself! i heard it!

i had a sweet and weird dream, and i didn't know i'll dream that
i just felt like...

didn't know liling called me until i woke up at 1400 plus
was too tired, too late and too lazy to go out

after lunch, went back to sleep again
practically today's my sleeping and resting day

woke up at evening, studied all the way

after dinner, studied again

minesweeper partner, where are you?
it's time to play! i haven't been playing already

tokyo drift's lyrics was too long, actually i want to post it

you kept me worrying, is it me that changed you to who you are now?
why are you living a life like this?
don't carry burden and sorrow with you, it's time to let go
somehow i can still feel what you're feeling inside

i just don't want to hear the reasons of me from you, cause it's stupid
i just don't want it to happen, cause i just don't worth
how i wish you were the one in my dream
i need a hug, i want to feel you, where're you?

okay, i miss someone ALOT today
but somehow i'm scared that something will happen
cause it's uncontrollable
and whenever i think of it, i felt like giving up

i want to hug you from the back,
i want to feel your presence

i'm inside you just like you're inside me;

last night i called someone for three times okay
and i knew she slept already

met wendy for breakfast in canteen
i hate what i saw, and it's always in the morning

don't call me that, i don't like, i don't want misunderstandings

my mood changed, and it's the starting only
she's not purposely one, she's bad mood that time
oh wells, maybe you're really irritating

ms vino didn't come for our ss lesson
though she came to school, it's a good thing la haha
we gossip, but gossip is bad haha
xuewen baked cookies for us okay haha

oh i forgot to blog about what liling said long ago,
liling wanted to write 'sorry, i can't be perfect" on the table
and in the end she wrote 'sorry, i can't be prefect' haha
huiwen reminded me of letter and must have decorations la
i wrote a letter but can't be bothered with the decorations la
slept

that smile of yours just doubt me

back to triangles again, can't be bothered

played floorball for pe, and our group damn lousy la haha

played ball during recess
i know something happen again, it's time i'll be harsh
i can feel that you're siding her somehow, just go

crying don't help, or maybe i don't know how you feel inside

oh wells, me and yimei love the word "HEH!" HAHAHA
kana scolded by mrs wong but it's fun

copied notes for chemistry
here's the conversation from our group of people
ginwei - "can bake cake in toaster?"
me and liling - "heh, like can leh"
felissa - "hahahahaha, where can?,
then yesterday what you use to bake cake?"
liling - "microwave right?"
me - "no la, that is oven la, hahahaha"
that why we were bad in our f&n la
don't even know what we use to bake cake la haha

jazz music for assembly, i love romantic music, don't know why
chat with zhenyi
i've got my own reasons for everything, but i guess i won't let her know
foongchin's crazy of her game la haha
it's never perfect haha
and she happily pressed my wound okay haha
i saw that look of yours

after school
rushed to buy food to maths lesson
we ran cause ms sim walked infront of us already la
her walking equals to our running la haha
we were crazy okay
reached class, we were panting hard la, marathon okay haha
okay i did funny noises again
don't know who asked something...
me - "HEH!" a lot of times la haha
ms sim - "judy, why are you behaving like that?"
ms sim - "behaving like a mad cow!"
okay it's damn funny la haha
i laughed till i wanna cry already la
liling's the second mad cow la
and i guess i'm addicted to the word "HEH!" already la
thanks to ginwei haha
thanks for your help, i won't forget

went to third level
liling went to the next class to use computer
i studied my bio while waiting for xuanya to finish her photo shoot
so she can teach me maths
tan and wong came up to use the computer
went to the next class to help liling haha
lynn and carmen came up
tan was damn worried la
you walked away silently

i'll find you no matter where you are
i won't leave you no matter how much you want to be alone
i can do all stuffs to make you happy, i want you to be happy,
even though i'm not happy myself. i want to treasure the time
that smile of yours is just what i wanted to see

meet them at housecraft room
met huiting at bus stop, scandalous haha
chat with huiting in bus
like what you said, as long as she's happy now, i'll be fine
i didn't know she bothers it that much, i guess i let her down
am i suppose to be happy or sad now?

went tiong
went to second level suona to chat
huiting wanted to see 2005's yearbook haha

...
...
...

i saw that beautiful sunset, but it seems like it's gonna rain
i know you're looking at it too, how i wish i could be by your side
though i'm not by your side, but i'm thinking of you

homed
i'm being truthful, cause i just can't cheat my own feelings anymore
i don't want to hide, but i'm still lost
i wants to be really harsh on you, but you're making me soft, i'm sorry

thanks, all along...

weekends, study!

that smile of yours tells me the life you're living now,
am i suppose to be happy or sad now?

maybe till now i'm still confused of my own feelings
but somehow i don't know why, i just want you to know...
not anyhow. never use it, not even friends.
from the bottom of my heart,
three words' eight letters' one meaning'

i felt a little pressure off my shoulder as i'm truthful
i said what i wanted to say from the bottom of my heart,
but it's just the starting only, my life is not darkness

emotions going on and off

be prepared for the consequences;

not empty, my soul's by your side

GERALDLYN'S NICE!
XUEWEN'S HOTBABE!

go read's geraldlyn and xuewen blogs
they blogged about me! i'm kind haha

last night
why doubt? why think so much? why the sudden thought?
don't put me in your burden cause i never yeah

lrt got technical problem, was dragged for fifteen minutes okay
so unlucky la
met kimberly at mrt
met wendy late at 0645
i hate what i saw, i've got no comments

rushed for breakfast, enough time to eat
i felt relaxed facing you like that

saw the 3B's girls, they were really united okay
ms vino was late for ss
we sat outside the class play and chat

geraldlyn baked me cookies!
it's hard and i guess she should put more butter yeah
i guess i'm choosy over food la, i'm hungry la haha
i wrote a lot of stuffs on the table during chinese lesson
was damn bored la
mr ng was in good mood today, he smiled haha

i helped people to draw circles for maths la
cause i'm pro at it haha

slacked during bio, ms chen was absent, slept

i don't know whether i'm full or hungry, but somehow full
maybe no appetite or mood la
so i had moo moo ice cream with zhenyi at last haha
i'll be there for you unless you don't want me to, i hate to be good

today's f&n was fun la, partnered yimei for practical
did swiss rolls haha
i put too much icy sugar la but cause i want it to be sweet haha
I LOVE NUTELLA! me and yimei wanted more! haha
and i'm being naughty okay, i'm mean haha
i untie people's apron knots at their backs without them knowing haha
it's the first time i never sleep during lesson okay
my eyes were wide open, yimei slept
xuewen drew a smiley face on my arm again la,
and it's premanent garden green marker la
oh wells, i guess i should have partner you, cause she's selfish

i wrote something on the red heart

i've no idea what's happening, but i guess something's bad gonna happen again

after school went to locker
whenever i see you, i hate you
wendy was like kept telling me to relax la haha

went tiong, wendy met her sister
went to sweettalk with liling
saw alicia and hillary
then went to second level suona, wendy's cousin was there
and her friends were funny once again la haha
studied my bio, oh wells, chapters 1 - 9 la
it's pa dao bu si okay
wendy came
kana chased out by security guards
and wendy scolded them silently haha

went to mac to continue study
wendy's cousin friends were crazy and mad la,
we pretended we don't know them haha
saw the 3B's girls
we chat ALOT, and we promised not to tell anyone
cause it private and confidential haha
laughed at people too la
me and liling concentrated on bio a lot la
wendy studied ss

something pop out, sorry

homed and i studied bio again la
i want to get notes and study later
i've got 5 more chapters to go
and this weekends, will study like hell
i realised i'm studying! i'm becoming like a nerd already haha
had to rushed, one more week only, i'm running out of time already

i'm glad i still treat you as a friend, cause i'll still need your help, thanks
i didn't blame you at first so i don't need to forgive, but forgive is good

thanks for your counsell, i know you're troubled
i'll talk to you when i'm free
between promises and love, which one should i choose?

rebecca chua! i need your teaching on maths
i want to complete my maths by tomorrow
so i can revise during weekends, are you free?

maybe during weekends, i'll go out and meet my friends
to study together cause sometimes i can concentrate when i'm outside
or maybe at home, depends on my mood la

you're happy outside, but what are you feeling inside?

i don't know what my heart says, i've got reasons for everything
what's bothering me is promises, i don't want to break someone's promise
cause promises are not meant to be broken, i want to prove that
how i wish i could drag as long as i got the answer

one more week, i want to drag, we've to concentrate
i don't want you to be sad because of bad results
i want you to do better than me
cause you can, must, suppose to and fated to

firstly, unlucky day. secondly, not happy
but good day cause i'm glad i studied

going to study later again

i put an extra heart in, and it must be inside always
cause it's suppose to be a happy heart,
and not a sad heart for you to throw out

I hate the feeling that you left me alone;

that i wish i never found you;

WENDY ROCKS!

people thanks (:
oh wells, i don't care already

i'm too tired yesterday
slept early

wendy woke up late
next time i should call her instead of msging her haha
huiwen's alone for the first time haha
i thought everything starts from morning,
but i guess i'm thinking too much

liling came early today
went for breakfast, quite a rush one
wendy came with the sleepy look haha

gossiped with wendy haha
it's the word that made me upset
oh wells, i forgive long time ago already
cause i won't waste time on this small matter

i'm so tired during f&n la, slept

rushed over the history work
i'm addicted to writing stuffs on the table
that i sat for every lesson that i went, kana influenced by liling la

did summary for english

did assignment in class, depreciation la
damn confusing, me, geraldlyn and elainetan became gong la
we've got a lot of jokes la, kept laughing okay
i kept eating sweets by wonka haha
it's sour then sweet, felissa's

played ball during recess time
damn fun la, plus the 3p crazy people haha
we were playing without rules, i lazy to run haha
someone cried tsktsk

ate sweets in class again haha
the three of us enoyed our jokes again la haha
did some target thing la
oh wells, who knows

that attitude you gave, i just wouldn't forget
last time you wouldn't like that, you will always be there for me, sighs

i'm surprised that you msged me suddenly,
but you think too much already la, they won't be in love with me la haha
oh wells, i won't think much, don't worry

why do people like to mix with popular people?
what so good about being popular?

slacked all the way during bio
was writing stuffs on a paper, a lot of people wrote too
good and bad stuffs haha, private and confidential

after school met zhenyi geraldlyn and wanling at the locker
accompanied zhenyi and geraldlyn to the foyer
walking down the stairs, saw mrs michelle chua la
oh wells, my belt plus my hand got drawing on it la
two smiley face okay
kana caught, went to sew belt tighter, zhenyi and wanling helped me la
and wash the ink away in the toilet then can leave la
got a girl was in the toilet washing the ink away on her hand too la
then finally i can go la
me and zhenyi saw someone, wanna go scold her one okay
but we stopped la, she's gonna get trouble from me and zhenyi la
she better watch out, i don't know why i dislike her so much
anyway i don't hate people haha

zhenyi and geraldlyn left
me and wanling went to canteen got our lunch
went to locker get maths textbook

went up to third level,
had my lunch, i don't have the appetite to eat one la
because of someone, i forced the food down
only rebecca teach me maths then i can concentrate la,
don't know why haha RING A BELL!
i concentrated la, but got a little distracted yeah
not stress but tired, kept yawning la haha
carmen chuang, i'm not your father2! haha
i hate what i heard

something just got me irritated yeah

i saw something, and i'm very scared that it will happen
i hate what i saw, sighs

it's weird looking at you

someone entertained herself in the bus
she kept bullying me with bags la, it just kept slipping off
she's stupid, retarded, mad, idiot, CRAZY and COPYCAT la haha
i'm surprised that you didn't stop me
i'm not tired at all, somehow i think it's worth it
my day is always ended with a beautiful fullstop
no matter how bad my day was in school (:

i saw sunset, a perfect time
it's just right infront of me as no building block it

oh wells, i guess i'm too tired this few days, not enough sleep
i slept in the bus, missed my stop la
so i've to get down two stops away, it's near yeah
and i enjoyed my walk under the moonlight

i kept writing that code, and cancel it, and wrote a new code
i hate what i heard, are we really ended?

i didn't tear away the letter, it's still with me, all my reasons
i want to pass to you, i want you to know how i feel
i'll only have the courage to pass to you when things go wrong
but i don't have the courage to see you sad

good day with a beautiful fullstop

this is not goodbye, this is starting over

a word can change everything;

XUEWEN ROCKS! HOT BABE!

last night was on the phone with someone
from 2300 to 0130
for the last 30 minutes, we just kept pushing each other to hang first haha
and i needed to say 10 sweet pleases la, so retarded la

i felt like as if i only slept for 5 minutes okay
i'll turn in early tonight

met wendy for breakfast
thank god, nothing change at all, it's still the same
the sunrise was very nice, today's a good weather

sat in front, and we thought king kong was pointing at us okay

i'm forcing myself not to sleep during chemistry la
geraldlyn made cookies on sunday and she brought it today la
the cookies were hard but it's nice la
xuewen thanks for your letter, i'm very happy already (:
i'm so impatient to tell you, i just want you to know,
i just want you to be happy

slept during maths

played floorball for pe today
damn funny okay, we laughed till fell on the ground la
elaineyeo stepped on the ball and it went out of shape HAHAHA

i received my IC already

i know you're waiting for me, sorry

angielina said i'm sweet HAHA

did some 'sing to the dawn' thing during cme
it's like how many centuries ago already la

ate chocolate cream during poa
elainetan treated us haha
she helped me with my work too, i'm lazy haha

did spelling for chinese, blanks all the way
mr ng went for meeting, our freedom!
walked around the school with liling
and i don't know what's going on already
your first impression to me is bad

what attitude you gave? you thought you were really big?
it's all because of you, oh wells forget it
how i wish i could give you a punch irritant

chat with xuanya

judy's a liar, remember? since she is, people stop telling her stuffs yeah

and so my mood got affected
chat with waimun
without hug is okay, with you by my side is enough

match against huayi
i can't concentrate, my mood really got affected a lot
my mind was always flashing that stupid word
i can't play the same like last friday, hardly can breathe
we won, but we played a bad game
why are you there? why don't you just go home?
your face affected me you know, oh wells forget it

i just wanna be alone
i didn't know you know where i am, i didn't know you will come find me
wherever i am, i guess you're the only one that can find me
that's the time when i need you the most

chat with puiyoong

home
you cheered me up, and i guess only you can (:
i need your warmth, oh wells

liar liar pants on fire, i just hate it
bits of you still remains, but i know nothing will stay

i helped you solve your problems cause i want to see you happy
at least i know that i'm not useless to you after all
only you can find me, feel me, make me real happy
in the crowds, i found you

i guess it's better not to be busybody,
sometimes helping people isn't good
shall concentrate on my SA2 from tmr onwards
shall overcome one by one

happy day during school hours
worst day after school

ruin by you;

the sadness in your eyes, the give up in your mind

last night i wrote a letter
it's three pages long with all the reasons in it
but still i tore it cause... sighs just no use

met wendy for breakfast
she cut her hair, got a tail haha
zhenyi cut her hair too, but fringe only, haha retarded

sat so front during morning assembly la, first time okay
people made me laughed while singing national anthem okay
especially jingjing

did comprehension during english
chat with liling, then slept
met them in the toilet,
i can feel the sadness in your eyes when you looked at me ):

circles for maths again
i'm good at drawing circles okay
i helped wendy to draw haha
i'm against with wendy for maths, and i said it for sarcastic
me - "i hate you, haha"
wendy - "no no no, i love you"
me - "hahahahahahahah"

rained
the wind made me cold but didn't sleep
can't sleep if ginwei's sitting beside me

why the sad face?
all i can say is that i'm forcing myself to be happy only

i love history lesson, it's relax and i won't sleep
how i wish i could sit beside you

did letter writing during chinese
sherlyn - satayman
me - chicken wing man haha
anyway choa ta is nice la haha
talked too much, so need to stay back la
stayed for 45 minutes okay
me and sherlyn wanna sleep already la
my mood went down after reading that letter,
i don't want to admit that i felt something
oh wells, who cares, she's happy now
i know how you feel, i'm sorry
i guess i did something wrong that hurt someone's feelings

maybe cause you understand her more than her,
that why you will side her, cause last time you hate her

went to wendy's house
i thought they cooked instant noodles for me okay haha
waited for 195 bus so long la
the bags i carried were damn heavy la

went to mac to put our bags
clarice was there

they went to sweettalk

oh wells, say whatever you want about me
maybe it's wrong that i helped people, it's always like that
i know you will misunderstood, so be it, forget it, i can't even be bothered
i won't care what you think as long as i know what i'm doing is right
i guess you're sucking up only,
if you weren't there, nothing would have happen
i thought you're not worse than her, but now i guess i'm wrong

they came back from sweettalk
you never even tell me anything, forget it
don't have to be there for me already

liling's there for me, thanks

sat in mac, weisuan came
oh wells, just go, just follow her

went to sixth level with liling
played coconut
oh wells, forget it, i'm jaded already
i did smile to make you smile, sighs i don't know

they came up
why is it always like that? i've got no comments, i wouldn't do anything
cause i know tomorrow will be fine

liling left
i'm sorry to hold you back, i know you don't want to be there

i left
met wanqiu
...
...
...

glad that you enjoyed, i regretted
i need warmth for now mostly

tomorrow got match, i hope it won't affect me
cause the previous match went fine, as nothing's on my mind
only concentration
i need your hug, i need your warmth ):

just want you to know, she betrayed my trust for her
go listen and believe whatever shit she said,
cause whatever i said now is no use,
you never even treat me as a friend already
i'm forcing myself to hate you, you never treasure like the way she do

i'm helping you and got myself into troubles but i think is worth it
i won't change my thinking because of other people
that why i asked you to be the happiest you on that day
i don't want you to be troubled because of me in the future
in order for me and you to be happy, there's only one way
soon you will know the reasons why am i doing all this

why do people promised not to tell but in the end they did
promises are REALLY meant to be broken
i'm getting betrayed time after time,
all i could do is, shut up my mouth and pretend nothing have happen

i know what's going on, i know what i do is right
now, all i need is the courage, a perfect timing
i don't know, i'm still confused inside

bad day with people being unreasonable
i don't know what to do already, it's not easy to balance ):

everyday i thought, tomorrow will be fine

since it's fated, let faith decide, it's weird

kimberly: which kimberly are you?

i found my old primary school friend, leonard chua wang jie
chatted with him, he's still available haha

thanks for your counselling, i'll know what to do
i'll still have to think day after day
thanks for being there for me, i'll be there for you too

i thought i hate you, but you're making me soft again
i won't break your promise

i think i know what's the answer already, i'm sorry

i only know my heart aches again, i hate what i saw
livejournal, i need you badly ):

no more, ended

moments there were when my heart trembles;

huiwen: not.

pictures are uploaded in the previous post

i dreamt a weird dream last night okay
i shouldn't have wake up, it will be continued...

actually want to go out today but i'm tired

i helped tricia something today, must thank me okay haha
cause i'm kind enough yeah

whenever i think of yesterday, i'll smile to myself la haha retarded

my smses are free flow today la

i just want to treasure the time
i don't want to drag you into so many troubles, i really don't want!
that why i'm thinking anyhow
maybe someday, you and me can run away
i know we will be happy. all your wishes are fufilled

happy day cause if she's happy, i will be

shortest moments without you make me uneasy;

i'll make your wish come true, believe in miracle

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREYWONG!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBRA!

maybe i'll upload all the pictures during the weekends
shall see, will try

met wendy for breakfast
quite a lot of people joined us
i know you're faster than me already, but i wouldn't mind yeah
rained

liling went to the back la tsk
oh wells, new formation for morning assembly already la

i wanna sleep during ss

me and liling slept during english
while marking our own papers la haha

circles for maths again, me and wendy going bonkers la
anyway ms sim praised us that our class have been very obedient,
responsive and most importantly, quiet haha

i don't like to play floorball la
instead i played volleyball haha

played basketball using volleyball
and must prevent the ball from making noise
by bouncing it on the ground
we can't dribble la, cause the prelims yeah
rained

elainetan helped me with my accounts work haha
thanks

left our bags in accounts class as during assembly,
we're coming back to our class yeah

so confused for chemistry la
copied so much notes

walked around with liling around the school
as we were bored in class during assembly
i'm not even listening to you, i don't even care

after school
went for maths lesson for geometry
wanling joined
and our class were very noisy and nonsenisical haha

felt bloated, never have a proper lunch
played ball, dry the court

matched with some church
it's okay, i can concentrate, i enjoyed the game
oh wells, i fell on a girl, sorry
anyway my knee bleed la, so it's fair haha
though it made some opponents pek chek,
but they apologised with their beautiful smiles haha
some guy wanna know my name okay, i felt disgusted
turning straight? haha who knows

met xuewen and huiwen at the bus stop
went to tiong with wanling
went to change cause i don't want to get sick yeah
didn't have dinner, i'm too thirsty
wanling left
i know how you feel, bear it if you can okay
and i'll think of a solution for you yeah
cause i felt it before, but i've to bear it and pretend nothing happen yeah

left at 2000 plus
someone's mad with vehicles okay
glad that you're happy today, i'm happy for you
i'm willing to do anything just to make you happy
i'm thinking of something, but it's true i'm a coward
a mad cow, inside mad and outside crazy la haha
FINALLY i got the courage already (((:
i kept smiling to myself on the way home,
thinking it, really feels weird inside, sweet and cute haha

reached home at 2200
my wound hurts when i bathed okay
but i'm happy haha, okay i'm crazy

you should be happy, don't regret the choice you made
since you chose the path yourself, continue walking to the end

i don't care what other people think about us
i don't care who you are, where're you from or what you did
as long as i ____ you
i fufilled your wish, you're the first

today's the happiest day of my life!
JUDYTAN IS ULTRA HAPPY TODAY!

i guess i can't sleep for the whole of tonight
and tricia will happily accompany me to be happy right?
but i'm tired yet happy! (((:

i walked out of the darkness with your help,
with you just by my side

i thought i'll win, but i lost already

i'm lazy to upload all the photos la,
maybe later, tomorrow or weekends, shall see
but asap yeah

last night was a terrible one
i'm counselling people like crazy

met wendy for breakfast
ginwei came early

whenever i see you, somehow i'll regret
i'm confused inside

i wanna sleep during ss

i wanna sleep during chinese

i concentrated during maths haha
haiyer, need to stay back tomrrow after school
for extra maths lesson for geometry la
don't know whether can rush for the match or not, i'll try

we had got new teacher for bio again
it's the fifth already
she's a new teacher from stc before
name ms chen, she's in short hair eh
she wore sports bra too
and now then i know that ms phee's a vice perfect last time la
and ms chen was always the one running away from her haha

i killed an ant haha
but alex killed it halfway through okay
so i'll finish it for her haha
and someone needs it for company la, how lonely haha
and i got scolded for killing an ant la haha
i carried a pink bag today, pink's a nice colour la

did biscuits for f&n
me and yimei a group
oh wells, it's burnt la
cause it's suppose to be the red dot not the griller la
we need to compare but all the biscuits were chao ta la
apperance, smell, taste and texture the same la
but we still love our biscuits hat we did, so we ate it up happily

after school
we chased the bus 65, and we were relieved
cause we wouldn't get to see them
went town with wendy and tricia
in the bus, damn nonsensical la haha
we got our drinks, and it tastes so different
my coffee ice blended was bitter la

went to heeren, the wallet shop is gone
so we went to 77th street, but wendy don't like the pencil case there
so we went to thirtyseven degrees,
and she got herself a pink pencil case la
me and tricia chose for her okay, and i made her dizzy haha
then wanna have lunch there, but none of us were hungry

so went back tiong
went to popular to get stationary
then watched poseidon, oh wells, someone gonna cry la
went to sixth level, met tan and wong

almost had troubles la, oh wells, i can't be bothered
anyway i'm very zi lian today haha, happy mood what

sent wendy to the bus stop
i just wanna know her answer, concern as a friend

went back to sixth level
i didn't know i could act like monkey haha
very nonsensical la, laugh laugh and laugh
and the most funny was tan's penafore, the flower haha

we talked till we forgot about the sun la haha
she likes a lot of uncles in the bus eh
and she loves an aunty with a mole at her chin haha

i thought all along, i knew it all, but i lost already
oh wells, be happy then

i felt better after telling you one of my problems
or maybe it's your encouragement that cheered me up
i'll tell you more in the future, learn the power of patience
the ending is important, you always ends my day happily,
i enjoyed the happy times with you, just hope this will be forever
please be the happiest you tomorrow,
i'll try my very best to fufill no matter what, i want you to be the first

just hope i don't know, just hope i'm confuse again
won't drag, it's the last

i shall force myself to stay awake until 0000
tomorrow!

got match tomorrow, but i don't think it's important
it's just friendly, and that team might not be strong, shall see
just hope my mood will be good tomorrow

i'm very tired this few days, kept sleeping in almost all the classes
i can sleep anywhere, anytime and anyhow la haha

happy day with a good ending (:

just found out something, and i ain't feeling okay, just weird
oh wells, it's better, i guess
i shall be sad for the last time ):

happy or sad, a weird feeling

give until it hurts;

met wendy for breakfast
i'm tired

hillary got my nametag, she saved my life haha

i'm so tired during f&n, i want to sleep
wendy helped me with my work

my history group is hopeless
i'm a failure, i know, is not easy at all

we were like primary six during english okay
we did grammar

i never do my homework and not paying attention during poa

i'm nice to help them put books in the locker la
am i lin grace malone or chow puiyoong? haha

played ball during recess
liling, ginwei, huiwen and me one group
lin, alex, zhenyi and siling one group
so fun okay, we kept breaking the rules la
but too bad stop cause got prelims

rain, i felt cold

then played outside ms yew's class
first, tricia jumped on ginwei, and i jumped on tricia
kana ginwei's punani haha
second, tricia jumped on liling, i jumped on tricia
liling almost kana strangled to death haha

did some encouragement letter writing to the o levels
i'm writing to valerie gho yong ting, if i'm not wrong yeah
i guess she's from band yeah
not much words at all la, better than nothing like geraldlyn's

me and liling went to take textbook from locker
but it's an excuse cause we wanna just come out of the class and play
gwen's like a ball haha
when will you change? you're always like that

two periods of bio
me and wendy laughed cause the bio teacher
was talking to herself and teaching herself
no one's listening, instead we argued back la
it's so boring la, i want to run out of class okay
someone's handphone kana confiscated haha

went to tiong
no appetite, something just upset me, i'm very confused inside
i shouldn't have think too much

i'm not meant to lie, but maybe lying helps, i don't know
i don't feel good inside, oh wells, no one understands how i feel

if the person you love is happy, you'll be happy too

went mac
in order to cheer liling up, tan said 'emal' jokes la
if people don't know what is 'emal', you're 'wols'

went to sixth level
mood started to change
if you are not there, we wouldn't be like that
i'm tired already, i choose not to bother anymore
can't stop forever either

i want to be alone, on the phone with her
and i guess she's the only one who can understand me
i just blurted out everything to her la, and i guess i felt better

everything turns out well after that

wong's belt buckle came out haha
sorry

went to ntuc
tan's being secretive la

i'm still tired la

you're not there when i needed you the most
or maybe you just don't understand how i feel
i want to blurt out to someone one day, but i can't as i promised
sometimes, it isn't good to be trustworthy
secrets inside me kept so long, i felt so trapped
i kept lying, but maybe lying helps,
cause i don't want misunderstandings or conflicts to happen
it isn't good. i don't know what i'll do if all the truth is out
the separation has it's faults, whether is it friendship or relationship
i just won't tell you everything even if you're there for me, sorry

i felt weird today, feelings came rushing back
its beyond my thinking already
maybe i shouldn't think much, no use regretting either
i can only blame myself for not treasuring the only chance,
avoiding the problem and running away

happy and tired day in school
bad day after school

refuse to go on the way, no change will come

refuse to lose;

my computer gonna spoil already la

last night, i didn't have a good sleep

woke up early today as usual
i'm tired

met wendy, had breakfast in canteen
triciayeo act cute haha
but it's neater already yeah

my IC photo haven't show anyone yet haha

two periods of chemistry
me and ginwei can't stand it already la
we wanna sleep

paying a little attention during maths lesson yeah
( angles in the same segment )

i boxed amandatan! zhixian molest my ear haha
i can't go for pe, i can't perspire cause of my head
someone wore normal bra!

zhenyi poured green tea on me la
and they said i stained, but it's not true haha
ginny's gonna be another one that pulls my sleeves la tsk

every cme lesson, is always LTT's speech time la
me and yimei wanna sleep la
camp instructor = outdoor activities instructor

slept during accounts
can imagine how tired i am la
i didn't sleep well last night la

me and liling went down to first level to play la
and zhenyi poured me water again la
someone wore normal bra! haha!
went back to class while mr ng never notice yeah
slept in class, kana caught, i'm blur,
hack care, back to sleep again haha

after school
chinese oral, and indeed got a lot of people cheat la haha
crocodile = er yu
i didn't know la, cause it's chinese word was chim yeah
conversation about vcd haha
i guess i'll get low marks cause i'm not the one talking la,
it's mr ng haha
chat with xuewen, elaineyeo and tia, nonsensical haha

can't go for training yeah
but i sit in means sat aside and watch
and indeed i watched until i fell asleep la haha
i'm way too tired la
oh man i regretted okay, cause today got people came for training la
all because of my stupid head!
but i learned la
ate hip hop jelly!

alex needed to wait for her mummy to fetch

wanling accompanied me with them to the bus stop
we missed a lot of buses! we drag the time haha
tan lent me a book with meaningful words inside, just like bible
oh wells, you all kept changing la
rebecca alighted the bus at tiong

we were very nonsensical in the bus okay
she said "ouch!" for six times la haha
first, a guy almost lean on her haha
second, a lady stepped on her shoe with her high heels haha
others were causes of the pole haha
actually could have seen the sunset,
but the buildings of singapore blocked it
anyway the orangy clouds were nice with blue background
anyway she's a crybaby, tsktsk
don't cry okay, ma ma will feed you haha
it's time to face the truth, it's her who causes all the conflicts

saw sihui and xinni

i'm curious to know the answer, that's all, no other thinking

i guess i know what happen to you nowadays already
i know you're stress, don't let anyone influence your thinking okay
just let it be natural, don't think so much
the more you think, the more it will happen yeah
don't control your tears alright, just cry if you want
my shoulders are only for you,
i'll be there for you no matter what, i swear

i guess i'm happier day after day

my head still hurts whenever i bend down, sighs
i want to cut hair already

happy day with good weather,
orangy clouds with blue background (:

livejournal!

hurt, heal, help

you're not left out by me;

my msn got problem

woke up late, rushed
in the mrt, she's just right beside me
i didn't know at first
oh man so malu okay

tricia's nice to wait for me at the bus stop
and people laughed at her haha

audreywong happily put her maths book in alex's locker la
and expect me to take la

liling went to hug me la, and i got a shocked okay
and so i banged my head against the door's edge la
and i thought it bruised, but it bleed!!!
and it flow down my head okay, i didn't know i had so much blood

ms phee's free la haha
went to gerneral office, not helping la
but don't know put what kind of lotion la, disgusting
scared infection, small fry
i don't want to go home, so bored

went back to english class early
slept la

i'm totally not concentrating in maths class
was chatting with wendy
people beside us were noisy la

i did my homework for ss, but ms vino didn't check la
i shouldn't be guai at all la, teachers are like that la

lin's cakes were nice, but not including throwing the wrappers
whenever i bend down, my head will be painful la
just one YOU care, it'll be enough

sihui sang a lousy song
ginwei's being crazy in history class
and wanru, michelle, sihui, liling, me and ginwei got into a group
and i guess, we won't do our work at all haha
should have group up with the hardworking people haha

i'm always rushing my chinese composition, so i could rest
and people like xuewen will copy la haha
like what ginwei say,
"got copy, got love. no copy, no love. people are always so reality"

after school
wendy and tricia pon haha

in the bus to tiong
i felt awkward
went tiong, had lunch in kopitiam
i'm nice to help tricia la haha

went to get sweettalk, i'm hot by the black pepper chicken la
i need ice blended to cool myself down haha
went to second level suona, ginwei started dancing

went to ball at kim seng, they're not there yet
played 2 on 2, and i slacked already la
oh man i've got headache already
i hate you for everything, you changed, don't make excuses anymore

wendy, tricia and me walked back tiong
wendy went to meet her cousin
me and tricia went to meet tan and wong
we were very nonsense la
tan and her mahjong, me and tricia with our games la
i'm gonna black out anytime la
i can't laugh, or else my head will hurts la haha
why didn't you tell me?

i know how you feel, maybe i guess i'm sorry

waited with wong for her bus, then followed by tan
i can make you happy if you want
tricia left

my dad sent me to see a doctor
oh man yesterday just see a doctor, and today again la
i guess i need to eat apples to keep the doctors away haha
that doctor cut my hair, i'm bald at a part ):
oh man, how am i going to face everyone tmr? so malu
the doctor wanna give me mc, but i don't want haha
and he don't allow me to go pe and training
oh man tmr's the only training la, and friday is the match already
thanks for caring, just you, it wouldn't be painful anymore

i saw beautiful clouds but it rain

i'm trying ways to cover that bald part of my head

and so this time, i'll switch over...

i waited, but once again i'm disappointed
the feeling's fading, i'm not gonna wait anymore, not worth
don't regret, cause you didn't treasure in the first place
just go as according to what you planned, i don't even care
don't say i'm a ____ , i explained three times, and it survived
but not anymore this time cause i'm tired already
i can only blame myself stupid for being silly all along,
which i shouldn't have

i won't let the past repeat again, don't go. if you go, what about me?
i'll prove people wrong. i've to admit that it's increasing
if you were to help me, i guess it'll be successful
i'll be there for you, this five words i swear from now onwards
you treasured (:

i set my mind already, i'll be harsh yet soft

i'm addicted to TOYKO DRIFT!

good day cause i had someone who cares for me (:

no repeatation of the past;

i'm already inside of you, just like you're inside me

now i know i can make my livejournal's posts private

my left arm hurts a lot, i don't know what happen to it
but maybe muscles aches

went to see doctor for check up for obs
he said i got fever because i'm too tired this few days
i don't even know i had a fever la
i've got no more strength already, but i'm still holding on

rain
let the rain pour down, i'm thinking of you

are you regretting already? i know you're still waiting
i'm sorry

the separation has it's faults, but deep down inside me,
i've never given up on you, you'll never be replace
i know it's not the ending yet, this love will never end
i'll be there again when you're ready
maybe we got touched at a time only
maybe future, we're the perfect ones
i'll still be waiting for you...
ke neng wo men yi hou neng chong lai

tomorrow will be a blend new start
truthfully, i'm not happy now

forever love, fond memories

unnoticed flashback;

last night, i couldn't sleep
a penny for my thoughts

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERLYN!

woke up early
needed do some stuffs

went tiong
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met them
saw zhixian and puiyee in mac

went to foodcourt as our birthday girl is hungry
everything changed when everyone's there

went to buy lollipop with tricia
cola is nice

saw jiamin

went to ntuc, they need to get some stuffs
accompanied lynn to top up her ez link card

saw waimun

took bus there
make up your mind please, i don't want to be push here and there
let me be alone is the best
we missed the stop

walked underground tunnel, people screamed for nothing

walked the great wall of china, finally reached
slacked

they went to catch fishes, fun meh?

went to the beach to watch sunset, nice

went back to bbq, i'm nice to help people
i don't have appetite
i had a bad feeling that something happened, but i wouldn't know

went to beach again, and it's dark
the wind was strong, cooling
they left, and how i wish, i could be alone for once that time

i just don't wanna be there, no reasons
chat with huiting, she almost made me cry

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how i wish i could tell you everything

i want to go back to the past,
where i told you all my problems without worries

goodbye for a reason, i love you so much that i need to let you go
both me and you will be happy, trust me
we won't have reasons for being sad anymore
like what i said, as long as you're happy, i'm fine
till one day, when you know how to fight for yourself,
treasure the things around you, not taking it for granted,
know what you really wants in life and you're ready
i'll be there again cause i know it's not the ending yet
this love will never end

start afresh, i'll be back to my past again
maybe life will be boring, but i'll be happy
whenever i'm alone, i'm hinting you, but you wouldn't know

neutralism (:

goodbye is starting;

go to sleep, don't wake up
be with me in the sweet dream

i deleted my livejournal,
and i hope it will work again

we wouldn't do or say anything till next week
and i hope you got the courage to stand up here and prove us wrong
if you want me to tell a lie, i will just for you
cause i wouldn't wanna waste time anymore
time is running out already, don't let go, hang on

training started early today, and i woke up late
i had bad stomachache this morning,
i guess it's cause i didn't eat anything
i don't know cause i'm not use to having breakfast

late for training
did drills, and wanling screwed up the whole thing haha
she can still smile la, when patrick gonna cry already la haha
big sylvia came with a guy
played matches
why wouldn't i put my heart and soul in it?
what am i thinking when i'm training?
i hate you

i saw npcc, and only jiamin's in her IJ blue haha

saw honey and liying
and wanling embarrassed herself only

after training
me wanling and lin went tiong
we went to take away ljs and mac to second level suona and eat
we took idiotic photos again, the photos will be up tmr
qianru came

they went home
don't have to be angry over a small matter, i had a hard time

don't blame her, maybe this is what it meant to be in the future,
you got to sacrifice

i went to redhill to pass xuanya calculator and back to tiong

wendy came
we went to mac but no seats
then to kfc, did homework, saw honey and jennifer
don't have to be surprise that i msg you cause i'm worried
but then we didn't order anything so kana chased out by the people there
then went to bk, finally i did finish my ss
still got chinese composition okay, i lazy to do leh
ginwei came, we made a lot of noise la

went to rajah inn, as our 'hot babe' was hungry eh

lynn and huiwen came, went to shopping with them
everything changed
went to mac, our another 'hot babe' was hungry la haha

then went to kfc, met tricia and sherlyn
lynn can accompany sherlyn to espanade la
cause i'm tired yeah
we were very nonsensical there la, especially our 'hot babe' haha

me, tricia, wendy and ginwei went to sweettalk
then to second level suona
we were very nonsensical there la
discussing about tmr...wendy will go crazy haha

home
your messenge was too hurtful for me to take )':
the clouds block the sunset
i walked under the rain, thinking of you

at least you heard everything from me already,
finally we sort things out,
but we wouldn't know what will happen sooner or later

don't make your heart tells a lie, cause i know it all
don't force yourself to do the things that you hate,
if you want me to be happy, respect my decision

bad day with surprises that are not meant to be ):

i hope tomorrow will be fine and relax cause i'll be at the beach

let the tears down, it's not the ending

sunday
me and wendy in the mrt



yesterday
i don't know what's happening in the suona haha

our promises, no promises

pictures will be up the next post

my livejournal is found out already
soon, i'll delete it
now, all i can depend on is my book

tuesday

a penny for my thoughts

so what if you were to be straight forward?
you can't change anything

i don't want you to be in the middle again
but since you can handle things already
and i still need your help

i've got no comments for you already
since you wanna be angry with me for just a small thing, so be it
hate me for all you want, i don't even care about you

i wasn't listening to your conversation, i'm sorry
i can hardly solve my friends' problems already

yesterday

went for training
hurry settle it, and start all over again
stop wasting ours and your time

mr patrick brought a guy along

wanling's late again,
the reason is always the same

played matches
all i can say is that i deproved, i'm always not following the strategies

you don't have sportsmanship okay, you don't fit to be...

i never even put in effort cause i don't want conflict

i guess you're experience already

waited for them for 30 minutes okay
we can't wait anymore, so we went to search for their class
ms sim likes to take people's time okay
and i kept getting phone calls la

saw puiyoong, and so we chat
and there this irritating bee kept buzzing around us okay
since she wanna play, i'll play with her
she wanna waste her time playing, let her be
i think she's the coward one that scared to be out here apologising

i know you're treasuring, but that mistake can't be erase anymore
why did you follow her? i pity you but you can't be back anymore, oh wells
now she left you alone, she's using you, you left with nothing already
anyway thanks for treasuring the friendship

went to tiong
was very nonsensical la
in the bus, was talking about our sec 1's memories haha

take away ljs and eat in second level suona
very nonsense inside cause got a lot of jokers eh,
lin took a lot of idiotic photos haha
it's fun, i had a great laugh

sent them home
i'm tired already la
hate me for all you want, i can't be bothered

went to tricia's house to shower
very nonsensical cause got two crazy people la haha

i'm very NICE to accompany tricia to her dental okay
took bus there, memories in the bus
and i'm so NICE to wait for her for 2 HOURS okay
i wait till i wanna sleep la
if she told me earlier,
i would have bring pillow or the whole bed there la
she owe me a lollipop, she said that haha
she cried cause it's pain, her decay was so big okay haha

then we guess we still got the time
so we took train to city hall
me - "wah here the bungs and actives are 'yi lor' one la"
she - "haiya, not more than ten la"
me - "if i'm able to find more than ten, another lollipop ah"
and so she owe me 2 lollipops haha, i'll remember!

walked the great wall of china, then finally reached esplanade
saw ling! she thought i forgot her okay
the clouds, the sunset, the wind plus a little rain
it's nice, i felt relaxed
how i wish, you're just right beside me

next time i'll go to the rooftop, the scenery's nicer up there

home too early i guess
i'm alone, a penny for my thoughts
i tried explaining, but no one's listening
she just wouldn't accept it

this few nights,
when jiamin online, she'll ask me to send her songs
but just nice i'm going offline haha

i'll have the answer by the end of this month, trust me
no one is to step out

relax day with beautiful scenery (:

today

i'm very tired or even lazy to step out of the house
i want to sleep

jiamin, you're lucky eh
but you offline very fast hor

i need a rest, i need to think
yawn, i guess i'm going back to bed later
this is always how my holidays work, this is how i enjoy haha

don't make your heart tells a lie;

i read something and i cried )':

i'm sorry, it's all my fault. got a match, even before it started, i cried. i got so scared, my confidence was right down. and so the last match, it's just that stupid bloody 3 points. i should have just shoot in a 3 pointer. i should have listened to mr patrick, i should calm myself down. i made my mistake, and i tried running back to cover, but it's too late. and i believed we can put that ball in again. it's so close, i'm so tired already. my heart was thumping like crazy but i don't wanna give up. mr patrick slapped my face to wake me up. everyone's waiting for me. i drived, but the ball didn't go in, and mr patrick would say 'good job, good try!', but i knew he's not feeling good inside. opponent got the rebound, and they put in another ball. i'm not feeling good inside. last few seconds, i ran like crazy, i wanna pass ball, but no one. and so the whistle, i just wanna black out. after the match, we got to shake hands, i wasn't feeling good inside when i saw opponents happily hugging each other. walked out, i kept looking up to control my tears, but it uncontrollable and so down my cheeks, it's the first time i cried after for so long. we put our hands together, and shouted 'STC' with tears. before the match, we had the last training, i was laughing, i wasn't concentrating, we thought we can win )': i went home, i don't wanna think about it cause i'll just break down. and i didn't turn up for school the next day, i've got no strength to face anyone. i reflected. i just wanna sleep, and i just wanna hope i could dream that i won, but it will never come true anymore, it's too late. mr patrick put in so much effort on us just to get in to the next round, but we failed. we apologised to him, we cried infont of everyone during recess, i controlled my tears. i'm scared next year, i'll just faint anytime, i'm really scared to disappoint anyone. it's the last year already )': my confidence is still down, cause i'm always thinking that b div we'll lose for sure, when we didn't treasure c div which is easier. remember when we're sec 1, amanda, qianru, jiabao, michelle, zhenyi, alex, wanling, liling, socklin, sueli, lin, brina, adela and me. we had tough and shit trainings, but the most enjoyable time was when we got to play matches among ourselves 5 on 5. no conflicts at all, in fact we were close to each other more than our own friends or classmates and telling each other problems. every recess, we will play ball, and we will laugh and enjoy. all the stupid things that we did to make mr patrick, mr eric and ms mak laughed. no cca c div can ever take over this group of c div. we overcome problems together, we went out together as a group. and soon after, people left one by one. we changed. we tried ways keeping people, but we failed. some enjoyed other cca, some can't stand the tough trainings, but why? we can overcome everything as long as we're together as one. where's the committment already? we used to help each other, we used to console each other. i want my team back just for next year, the last year, i really want. )': as long as the team is back to one, we can win, we can overcome the fear together. we can get the favourite jersey numbers we want, we can choose our favourite jersey colours. whatever things are happening now, i no longer care, no longer bother cause i know we're different in character. i rather sacrifice for all of you. i wouldn't want anything, i wouldn't want any positions, i just want the sec 1 team i used to have 2 years ago. the obstacles we went through, we laughed, we sceamed, we shouted, we cried. i'm afraid to think about the past, yet i'm living in the past. lin thanks (: where're all of you? i miss the laughters and the stupid things that we did. and i still think WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! )':

she won't come back anymore, she's not the same anymore

i'm back to my livejournal already
i guess i need it badly

last night
was very terrible and hard to get hold of it
and finally, the truth is out already
don't you cry, i'll cry for you )':

on the phone with wendy, but i guess it's too late already
can't turn back the time anymore

was thinking a lot when i'm on my bed

today
oh man thanks for a call, that woke me up la
or else i'm gonna be late la

met wendy at lot 1
did my chinese, oh man forgot to bring my ss notes out la
wendy's handwriting VERY NICE okay
and my handwriting don't sucks,
but that doesn't mean it rocks yeah
oh man i'm good at reading chinese passage, isn't it wendy?
but she's very nice to help my find answer
for my chinese comprehension
we chat a lot

then went down to tiong
i'm sorry, but it's not concidence anymore

you should have tell me earlier, nevermind
i guess i need to pretend nothing happen again
anyway no one can compare to her what

sorry that i failed to meet you

i thought i can play ball to relax myself, to forget everything
but sighs nevermind, i can only blame myself for being stupid

went to ntuc to meet them

went to mrt
you're lucky, you're happy already

went to buy sweettalk
tricia's nice to treat me

then went to 6th level

then to second level suona
i like that place somehow

then went to rooftop alone, a quiet environment
how i wish it was night time
maybe alone is the best somehow

i like 'bao qing tian' kept walking in and out the suona
just to buy things la

first, sweettalk
saw huiting

second, was lollipops
i treated triciayeo la, thank me haha
saw krystal
i chose that flavour cause you like it too

third, because zhenyi wanna buy food
i'm nice to accompany her la

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don't worry, i just gone somewhere
don't because of me and affect all of your mood
great thanks for cheering me up!
in fact, i'm cheered up by you all (:

thursday, thursday and thursday

my minesweeper's not working, sorry shahilia
tell me!

besides asking you to be like that, i've no choice already
i don't know what to do already, i don't wanna ____ you
i don't wanna see you, i'll be soft if i wanna be harsh
i wanna make your wish come true, i wanna hold on till the day

and finally, the truth is out already
why would i want you to be _____ towards me when it hurts me?
stop pushing me to her cause you're the answer to everything
please don't break the promise that you made to me

i can hardly hold on till the days already, but i guess i'll be strong
i don't know what rubbish i did already
why do i force myself to do the things that i hate?
who can give me the correct answer?

maybe none.

and so i'm gonna lie again, sighs

bad day with falsemasks ):

woke up from a sweet dream;

you either made me better or bad;

yesterday

why ask that question? so what if you know?
we can't go back to the past anymore

i'm always making my mind or decision wrongly,
cause i can't even bear to know the answer

don't think too much, cause it makes your imagination goes wild
but that doesn't mean you've to make yourself busy till you're tired
no worries, i'll be there

went lot 1 for dinner until quite late
went minitoons, okay i know what to get already
and they were playing that song...
a gift from me to you, i guess it's fated for me to think of you

not much people were online for the first time la

today

oh man why that song?!...

i don't wanna rot at home
as my sister got tuition la

went to tiong, met wendy
walked around, as everyone's busy

went to sweettalk
then to suona,
we talked ALOT of stuffs okay, GOSSIP...
we talked about our LIFETIME story la
wendy's lifetime story was so interesting okay, beauty haha
and we were talking about this three people
let's make it X, Y and Z la
X and Y are SO close HOR, Z is INVISIBLE one haha

tricia came, to pass the vcds to wendy
then she left yeah

i was telling wendy something,
i know who she's talking on the phone haha

then we took mrt down to choa chu kang
we took a dark photo in mrt okay, so lame haha
in the mrt, i'm addicted to the song already
WENDYNG, WHERE ARE YOU?
SEND ME THE SONG AND PHOTO!

went to walk around lot 1,
and i just walked yesterday la
we walked into alot of gift shops
new stuffs came in la
'she likes to entertain guests eh',
wendy find it familiar? haha
i didn't know she hugs it...

then went to mac to eat ice cream
the people that sat beside us ah,
no comments la haha
frenchfries like mountain like that okay
drinks were 'yi lor' one la
don't need money one haha

wendy went back to her aunty's house
and so i went home yeah
was like rushing home okay, i'm late
it's not boring going out with her alone la
it's fun, interesting and funny la haha
but i hate to carry her lugguage haha

thanks for that, i'm happy
but you don't have to avoid me,
cause i know it all

i don't wanna rot at home tomorrow,
i wanna do homework already

i've my own reasons for doing that, i don't want you to...
and i guess i'm gonna success already,
but still i'll care how you feel,
i'm happy and responsible for my doings,
i wanna go back to the past

maybe you're the answer for everything,
both you and me got to make decision in life, it's hard i know
but still i'll support the decision that you make,
don't stress yourself, don't think wild, don't make yourself busy
you made me think of _____ , i'll hug it too (:

and this month will be on and off,
i'll take this holidays to take the first step
i'll not make myself busy but i'll make myself happy and relax

happy day with talkings (:

so in love;