Thursday, August 31, 2006

time is what i'm holding on tight now;

and finally i slept late for once last night
i'm not wearing skorts, set
and i don't want to go back my primary school already,
all not committed okay

rained

met wendy for breakfast,
but i knew we'll still have breakfast later on

breakfast time
the third level was full of nonsense, crowded and noisy la
i like to peel egg shell for people haha
watched youtube in 3J
me liling and zhenyi just liked to take photos of ourselves okay haha
and a lot of funny stuffs la
let the rain pour down, and i'm thinking of you )':

i don't wanna end just like that,
i've pretended nothing happen already,
what more do you want me to do?

i'm addicted to the song 'first love' already okay
i love the english lyrics

i think bible is nice, got meaningful words (:

went to hall for celebration
people around me kept playing with the pong pong thing la
i just kept shaking hands to make peace haha
samantha naughty ah, but i'm naughtier haha
the teacher's look alike so funny okay
especially lin as patrick haha
'some people ah more worse okay,
borrowed money already ah, never return la,
still claims that she return okay'
this sentence looked familiar, isn't it?
you scares me already, and you're sitting infront of me,
how do you expect me to face you?

went back to exam room
must wait for dismissal prayers la haiyer
we got irritated okay haha

went to the opposite bus stop to take bus
saw priscillalim
the stc people there ah,
was many until don't need money one la
i've a change of view of you already

doesn't mean evil looking people,
will have bad character yeah

that glance of yours scares me

accompanied liling to cut hair
sighs, i'm tired, i'm sleepy

liling left
me wendy and ginwei went for lunch
saw honey yeah

then went to second level suona
to chat and slack
ginwei's being crazy again la
she likes to play drum haha

ginwei and wendy left

...
...
...

i'm sorry, i think i hurt you again
don't have to think much
cause my conscience is clear

i've got no comments already

don't have to scared cause i'm useless
i'm sorry, no mood today )':

WENDYNG WHERE'RE YOU?
COME ONLINE NOW HAHA!

forget it, you're not even ready yet

now, i just want to go back to the past
don't want your tears to flow anymore
when i'm bored, i only want you to accompany me
now, i just want to go back to the past
i know you still love me
dearest you, please hold my hand tight
please look at me
the me that needs you
just want you to turn back
0000, tomorrow's a special day for just you and me (:

i'm tired already, i just wanna bo chup, i've got my own reasons for it
making you all happy is my responsibility cause i'll be happy
but can you all just understand how difficult my position is?
i'm just scared to let anyone know the truth
and i can only keep it to me, myself and i
i've got no one else to blame but me, myself and i
i don't know what's on my mind already, maybe rubbish
can't stand still anymore, gonna black out

full of hide and seek, bad day ):

rain that reminds me of you;

i don't want to describe the feelings;
you know the reason why,

and finally i get to use computer
after showing my report book to my parents
it's like eighteen days okay
how suffering la
but i'm surprised that i went through it okay

geraldlyn's computer spoil!
sorry i can't accompany you anymore haha

yesterday

no hurry for obs health form

don't you sad, it's okay
he may forget anytime yeah

maybe she just need a simple friend,
i understand how she feels
so can't blame her for everything

after school
you're scaring me
had ice cream
our wrappers are all over the table la
go home take a rest,
and don't think too much about it yeah

we were late okay
we were running after the bus la
damn noisy in the bus okay
just because of a bee la
and it's dead la
it's in a box
i held it, and everyone started screaming la
it's a boring trip too
i didn't know i've got a new name la
'sally tan mei li' ? haha funny eh
you wouldn't know how i feel,
how i wish you're right beside me
and if you don't know, i'm waiting...

went to the egg don't know what thing la
need to wear mask, showering cap and pck boots okay
so big la
i look very weird okay
and my hair stick out through the cap la haha
it's cold inside okay
and me and zhenyi were very nonsensical la
hahaha funny
crystal chin's laughter damn scary haha

how i wish i could go back later
so i won't have to go training
cause i dread it ):

in the bus back
yimei and i slept la
still, the bus was noisy as usual la
xuewen they all cat fight okay
pulling hair everywhere la
their hair totally screwed up la
jiamin damn poor thing la
i want to act normal but you just have to 'push' me away
do you even care how i feel?
i don't wanna lose the friendship, get it?

went for training
played a match only
i didn't put in my best,
i'm playing anyhow, sorry ):
i'm always looking at that direction,
but i'm disappointed

me alex and lin ate ice cream!
i ate lime surprise and hip hop jelly haha
i'm addicted to the ice cream already
if you happens to see me in the canteen,
it means i'm urging for ice cream!
i guess the first level is damn quiet, unlike the third level haha

i thought i can isolate from you for the time being,
but i'm wrong cause i'm into it already

tricia's nice to wait for me at the bus stop haha
went to tiong ntuc
to play trolley again la
played hide and seek somemore
me and tricia lazy to seek la
instead we chat till tan and wong came back themselves haha
triciayeo, i won't forget what you did to me haha

home
sorry, i wasn't in the mood to talk

slept at 2130 la
cause i've got nothing to do la

smile without me;

today

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARILYN!

had breakfast in canteen with wendy, as usual

f&n
mrs ong's absent
we did our own work,
instead, i slept haha

history
i dread what i saw,
i don't even know whether you even care or not
cause you don't seems to, i just can't sense it anymore ):

i don't know what you will say
but i'm just scared that she'll stress over this thing,
so don't force her anymore, give her space to think
let it be natural will do, thanks

english
xuewen sat with me
we were just being crazy and insane la haha
grealdlyn also okay
i hope it's the first and the last time you're doing that yeah
you're scaring me cause you've never been to that before

poa to bio
pon for the whole lesson
sat outside toilet till my recess
i wouldn't care how they think about us
as long as our conscience are clear
don't worry, everything will be fine
thanks for still being there for me, cause you're the only one i trust (:

i wanna go back to the past when just only you and me

you broke my promise when i heard about it,
you know how furious i am?
i felt like just give you one slap to wake you up
i guess they influenced you, nevermind go to them for all you like
i don't have the right to care anymore already
and i thought i could tell you my problems but not anymore
you're not the one i known before already, you changed, sorry ):

recess
listened mp3 with zhenyi
and i think my mood affected hers
sighs, i'm sorry ):
i'm thinking much again
i don't know how to react to the both of you already

pc
me and xuewen were going bonkers again la
we kept laughing la haha

bio
not in class again la

bio to poa
me and xuewen were cock eye okay
either she copies mine,
or i'll copies hers haha

after school
accompanied zhenyi
to eat ice cream in the canteen
i had lime surprise okay haha
amandatan had hip hop jelly okay
there's lychee flavour too!
zhenyi need to go for a maths test
i knew you've something to say

accompanied xuewen to tiong
reached there, they are not there la
waste my time, or else i would just stay in school okay

then walked to huiwen's house
10 minutes of fashion show
then walked back to tiong lo
i wanna sleep in suona okay
i'm so tired la, can hardly walk already la

...
...
...

met them at the taxi stand
i pretend nothing happen cause i want the friendship
or maybe i'm just using you, i don't know

home
audreywong's water bag burst!
i've got the mood today (:

you're someone easy to talk with, no stress or whatever
but i still have doubts on you, sighs

we didn't tell each other,
cause we wouldn't want each other to be worry
but in the end, end up being misunderstood, sighs
i wanna be there for you, i really do
why are you still thinking much?
i guess, maybe i shouldn't even care ):

can i pon school tmr?
i'm tired la, i rather sleep at home okay
but i can't la... sighs
another reason is SAY NO TO SKORTS!
should i go back my primary school tmr?
i wanna see my primary school friends la
but i'm tired leh, shall see

finally you talked to me, i'm very happy
whatever happens in the past, we shall forget it okay

maybe you're just using me, or maybe making me happy only
you made me happy. i didn't know i'll affect you, sorry ):

she's waiting for you and you wanna accept her,
wasn't that perfect for the both of you?
maybe with her your smile will be brighter
don't worry, i'll be happy (:

i will bear till the days to end,
and my decision will be set
but i just have to suffer for this period of time
whatever i did, is just wanna keep you one more day

you found our love back;

i wanna forget the feeling that i miss you

my dad went bonkers again la
he wanna see my report book first okay tsk
anyway i'll try to remember the days...

thursday

after school went to tiong
in the suona
this is the conversation between me and the cleaner aunty la
i was folded a paper crane
she - "this thing can fly one or not? is it a bird"
me - "no, it's a lion"
that aunty believed okay
that aunty wants entertaining by us la
she - "must open the wings then can fly what"
me - "it's a pig haha"
i got a call...
that aunty just don't wanna keep quiet la
is very rude to talk when i'm on the phone okay
me - "SHH!..."
she - "..."
me - "oops sorry haha"
it's very funny la
i guess i shouldn't have even tell you,
i know you'll side her, you just wouldn't know how i feel
i don't feel good this way either ):

it's not easy to balance
)':

people ask why, the reason is you

friday

stayed back after school for training
sighs i dread training okay

they went to settle stuffs
me alex and wanling went to watch free show,
but must force ourselves to not laugh la
oh man they're feirce
i wanna help you, but i don't even know which is the truth
are you saying the truth or lie?
i'll still be there for you if you need me (:

went for training
played match la

then they were celebrating for alicia's birthday
playing water here and there la
then someone went to complain la haha
anyway i think it's super funny okay
i don't know that you're that coward la haha

don't think too much
it's just random questions
i shouldn't have even ask you, i'm sorry

i can hardly find a listening ear already

it won't come to you
unless you do something

saturday

must wake up damn early okay
to make my ic la
anyway i'm not fully awake when i reached there
so the photo i took, totally sucks yeah

all i can do at home is sleep, eat, sms, stoned and rot yeah
i thought i couldn't tell you the things that i wanna say already

i'm willing to give up everything,
just to keep you one more day

sunday

bored to death okay
i guess we had enough communication already yeah
i don't wanna be hurt, i dread all the cheatings
all i can do is pretend nothing happen
but in my heart, i mind

i think already, time is all i need
i want them to be happy first,
i want to make their wishes come true

it's not easy to make a choice
but i have no choice to not make a choice

today

met wendy for breakfast
explained to her so no more bao qing tian face already haha

assembly in the hall
people told me, my hair kinda obvious that i cut la
so i'm trying to avoid king kong okay
i don't wanna go for the stupid computer thing for basketball la
so boring okay, waste my time only

two periods of english
practise summary writing
oh man i kept reducing the words la
making myself stress and confuse only la

maths
went to cyberhome
oh man can't log in to blogger okay
friendster also can't la
i guess i need to tell my livejournal to everyone already la
cause only livejournal can be log in

ss
times flies as i'm writing letter la
i guess i've interest in SBQ already la

recess
not so high today
it's a fine and cold day

history
ginwei made liling angry lo
i know i cock eye la haha

whatever i did, i just wanna see you

two periods of mt
bored to death la
kept running out of class okay
anyway saw a very mushy letter la haha

after school
staying in school to blog and check emails la
i miss my computer okay
i guess we can only be that way yeah

tonight will be boring at home again ):

if i ___ you, i'll ___ you for who you are

everything doesn't matter to me anymore,
i just wanna feel the meaning of true love.
that's all i'm asking for,
i'm waiting...

do wishes do come true?
i believe in miracles.
i'm disappointed once already, no more twice
no one understand, no matter how much i hint

whatever i did, i've my own reasons behind everything

i don't know what's love, but i fell in love

yesterday

chemistry
got back science paper
before i receive, i've got no confidence at all
but as i recevied, HAHA!

pe
did that stupid aces day dance la
anyway i didn't dance la
i dread it

sighs, i don't know why but whenever i see you,
i hate you, sorry ):

after school
played ball
juniors came, full or nonsenses haha

played badminton, me and liling quite pek chek
nevermind la cause we don't even bothered
we just played for fun la, not caring whether is it win or lose

then played match with the seniors
sighs i dread it ): , that why i didn't play properly la
anyway i guess no one's at fault la
i dread the smile you gave her )':

just wanna let you all have fun la

i know you all confirm will angry one

i felt very retarded in the bus,
anyway i'm not a pervert okay haha
under the moonlight, i wanna walk with you

quite a happy day (:

maybe someday, you and me can run away

today

woke up a little late
but able to rush in time

met wendy
had breakfast
i'm tired okay

there's vacancy for obs singapore la haha

f&n
sighs, i wanna sleep, i'm very tired

history
i'm sorry, trust me no more ):

don't worry i'm not angry with you
i've no one else to blame but me myself and i

english
i don't want high marks but just pass can already yeah
i'm being honest, i guess

poa changed to bio
running outside the class
never listen to teacher, chat in class
bored to death haha

recess
sighs, i don't know how to react to you already,
but i'm trying my best yeah

don't worry, i won't tell (:

i don't know whether you talked to me is good or not
but you're still my friend yeah

i haven't been talking to you already

you made me angry, i hate you
dread me for all you want, i don't need your forgiving
i also don't wanna talk to you, i wanna cry already )':

i almost cry infront of yossie la haha

pc
i guess only you can understand me, i need you

bio
stoned again la
i hate the feeling of being betrayed

jaey lim almost fall down
and she almost make me no mother's day okay haha

poa
learned an important chapter
i paid attention okay
but i wanna sleep cause i'm tired yeah

after school
i guess you all misunderstood me already

it's not even a problem

sighs, i hate you, i guess
i don't even know the answer also ):

only you can understand me, i need you
only you can make me smile
but your reaction and actions are scaring me

i hope i can find the answer soon, i'm still confuse sighs
i shouldn't have even tell anyone
i thought i could avoid and drag it
but that day will still come
and i won't avoid anymore ):

bad day )':

the more i hate, the more i fall deeper

it's all an illusion, i guess

sighs still got one more week to go!
i must bear!
i must blog la,
i've got a lot of things to blog la
cause a lot of things happen nowadays yeah

thursday
history paper
shit i never finish my paper okay

friday
got my maths and accounts paper
not bothering whether is it high or with flying colours la
just pass, i'll be happy already yeah, but still i'm glad (:
sighs don't be sad okay, try harder next time la
you can cause you're clever, but i'm very surprised yeah
maybe you got affected by things around you la yeah

saturday
haha i'm late again
went to expo for flag day
me felissa liling ginwei wendy charmaine and marie-ann
felissa and marie-ann joined our group
cause their members not free yeah
slacked at most la
dismissed ourselves earlier lo haha
kept bullying marie-ann in the mrt la haha
it's fun la, i enjoyed myself
i hope i cheered you up (:

sunday
stoned at home lo
thanks for msged me what happen, she really can't be trusted yeah
she betrayed me before, i don't blame her directly
i just shut up yeah, anyway i agreed with you that she's a flirt la

sighs, i'm sorry
but that is not how i treated you, i swear
my heart aches, i'm sorry )':

last night
can't sleep at all, nothing to do la
so lied on the bed for more than one hour thinking stuffs la
i must have the courage to do it this time,
if not the ending will be a bad one

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOCKLIN!

wendy woke up late
i sat on the hardcourt admiring the moon la haha
zhenyi came
then wendy came
i've got no mood to eat breakfast la
oh man, why the storm?
just let them do what they want la, they never listen to you what
you also don't know what happen what, i guess it's misunderstanding la

a lot of fun people going obs singapore okay
it's gonna be fun!

two periods of english
got back my english paper

maths
ms sim's not here today
went to angklung room for lesson
ms wong was there
ginwei became very clever okay
but she used chemistry's method to solve maths questions la haha

ss
got back paper
i improved! almost there! haha

photo taking
okay i'm short la
every year i will stand at the second row and always at the corner one la
fun shot!
we sat on the floor okay haha
the second fun shot
me yimei and liling didn't take la
cause too many people stood on the branch already la
then we can't squeeze in
so we stood at the back so no one see us la haha

never eat during recess
i sat in the toilet for the whole recess
hoping you will appear, but sighs i'm disappointed
i thought i can believe in miracles, nevermind

history
got back our paper
i'm glad (:
don't be sad okay, you made me sad, sighs

i'm glad i talked to you

two periods of mt
did don't know what 'sing to the dawn' thing la
got back paper, shh... haha
it's just a small thing, don't have to be angry la haiyo

after school, took the edusave form
haha me and liling don't need to pay anything

sighs you forgot but maybe it's a good thing yeah

i don't treat you like that, i swear!
i'm not a ___ also, it's up to you to believe
cause if i were to be a ___, i would have let go of you long time ago already
i don't know what's happening, but it's not your fault at all
i tried to avoid them to make you happy already
i tried to do a lot of things, i tried my best in everything,
i let go everything because of you, but do you know?
actually i wanna ___ your ___ today, but you never appear, forget it
heartaches, but i wouldn't blame you cause i still believe in miracles )':

i'm standing in the middle ):

you never appear, nevermind i'll wait, i'll be silly for you

time is running out, treasure the time

someone helped me update my post yesterday
thanks

last night i'm damn bored okay
cannot online
and accounts there's not really much to study
so slept at 2200 la

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS MAK!

woke up early today
yesterday i woke up late la haha

met wendy
had breakfast in the canteen

accounts paper
quite easy la
did for 15 minutes then sleep yeah
cause we don't need to write ourselves and draw lines

history
wa liao the geo class so relax la

english
did nothing but walking on the corridoor always haha

bio
the coward teacher never come
so 'security guard' came haha
stand at the door la
her legs won't pain one okay
stood like for 45 minutes la
her legs will ache la
she don't wanna come in the class
and sit down la
she act strong one la

recess
stayed in class when we not suppose to la

pc
did that stupid reflection la

bio
another indian teacher came in la
me and geraldlyn damn crazy one la

haha oh i threw the balloon at chelsy's leg
and it's filled with water la
she's wet haha

accounts
it's easy to do la
but must write a lot of things okay

after school
gonna stay back in school
and study history
then maybe going tiong

i'm glad we talked already, but just hope nothing will happen

oh man, i just scared to face the both of you

maybe to you, sometimes i can be myself only

i'll be there for you for sure, just walk with me,
hold my hand and you won't fall. if you were to fall, i'll piggyback you.
trust me..

my time is running out already.
days passed by like so fast, but the only thing i know is
i just wanna treasure the time and be happy

maybe to you, i can be myself, the real one

judy cant blog now!
erghs! and she misses her computer and internet soo much!
haha. too bad!
anyway, she want me to help her blog about recess.
it rained like crazy and we got wet,
helped some class grab their bags to put them in their class.
they were having their paper. and their bags and books were al super wet. so yeah.
haha. we got ourselves wet.
then, in the toilet, dont know who take blue pail and pour at people.
got caught by mr tan and yeah.
all wet from head to toe lah!

& after school,she stayed back with rebecca,audreytan and wong.
instead of studying we played games and made ourselves laugh like idiots.
hur!
"coconut" and concentration!
rahh! meow! sssss! oink! pok pok!
haha. lame!
thats all.
BYE!(:
HARHAR! judy's daddy doesnt allow her to use the com!!
poor thing!
LILING'S ez-link super cute man! hahahaa :DD

flashback;

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DORCAS ON 12TH AUG!

oh man shit la
my dad disconnect the internet for at most two week la
i mean after my CA2 results are out la tsk
shit man i can't live without my internet la
i can blog outside
but sighs not online anymore la haiyer

last two days
just stoned and rot at home la
but i'm glad i studied yeah
i'm still waiting...

i hate you in the past for what you did
but now for what happened
i pity you

now at wendy's home
blogging yeah

can't sleep last night
studied until 0130
then on lie on the bed thinking again la

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLENE!

met wendy
had breakfast in the canteen
ginwei's left eye pain i think
her eye was red
and i think it's her contact that cause it la
she got flu too la
tell me what to do...

english paper was fine la
i chose question number 4
cause i think it suits me
and can do reflection at the same time la

one period of english
play and run in and out of class la
to relax myself after exam la yeah

maths
went through paper
bored

ss
i understood like finally haha

we did our pbl during recess
for 15 minutes only la haha
we got the top okay

wendy didn't buy nuggets for us okay
even she did,
our classmates will eat it before us la haha

bio/chem paper
damn i forgot how to calculate already
prepare to flunk la

two periods of chinese
did letter writing
then went to 3J's class
it's so boring in class okay
anyway xuewen fell off the chair herself okay
then we all started to clap and laugh la
hahaha it's damn funny la

anyway i was saying huiwen damn irritating la yeah

shit i need to meet jolene in tiong la
but not today
cause my time all crashes okay haiyer

i don't have the sudden to see you anymore,
sorry

staying back in school to study
i hope i will study la

tonight gonna stoned and rot at home again la sighs

tmr got emaths and ss papers la sighs
my life is screwed la

i want to see you too

is still the same, three words' eight letters' one meaning just for you

still everything, will not last long
but it not gonna end now
i just wanna treasure the time
and that everyone's happy (:

whatever i did, i did is because of us

anyway i forgot to blog about chemistry la. geraldlyn was VERY nice that she lent me her notebook for open book test okay. so she need to use her textbook la, and it contains not much of notes la. THANKYOUVERYMUCH! I LOVE YOU as a friend! (: you should be honoured okay, this is the first time i said the three words to a girl la haha. i won't forget about monday one, but just to tell you i haven't even buy it haha.

I'm risking it cause i have to this time

i still feel uneasy, maybe you ain't there for me no more

last night i couldn't sleep
was lying on the bed thinking stuffs
somehow i'm sad
i don't know whether you're using me or not,
your sms told me so, maybe you're tired of caring already )':

woke up at 0500
don't feel tired la

someone and i took the same train
she's always holding _____
look whose talking? haha

met wendy
had breakfast with her
we're still gossiping about people haha
now then i know how thick your skin is,
you're damn irritating okay
stop sucking up to people la
zhenyi came

ss
i paid attention

english
me and liling chatted until halfway
then tired, then slept haha

maths
oh i got 0/20 for my test haha
not only me la lol
i guess, most of our class failed la
you hurt me, i don't expect that )':

pe
haiyer only for the undone napfa people la
me and wendy went to change back to our uniform okay haha
played ball
rained
got myself wet and sweaty la haha

recess
sighs, maybe it'll never come true

i'm not using you, if i am,
i rather talk to her myself,
we just need someone to help

poa
i passed my test
left out bags in class for ass
maybe i'm really selfish )':

chemistry
open book test
felissa and i just hate ms phee's act cute face okay haha
felissa me and liling were very confident of passing la
but not over confident la yeah

assembly
i carried tables okay
i ____ exams period okay
i guess you should be happy during this period of time

after school
actually decided to go for ss extra lesson
to be more understanding of SBQ yeah
but until 1430, ms vino still didn't shown up okay
and i'm hunrgy
so nevermind, i shall go on monday yeah
maybe i'm purposely, who knows

chatted with wendy
sighs, will tell you when the time ripe okay

chatted with ________
i know how you feel..
i have no comments for her already, but only hate her
fcuk

went for training
played 2 on 2
ginwei's very funny okay
cheered us up la, made us laugh okay haha
puiyoong laughed until there's no tomorrow okay
rebecca and audreywong also laugh la
then serious time..
me and lin trained with patrick
going through skills la, sighs
don't think too much okay,
i guess she wouldn't say anything for the time being
just let her say what she wants la
she's losing friends already what

i guess you talked bad stuffs about her infront of _____ again la
just keep your mouth shut la
can you just stop it?
cause you're the one in the wrong, get it? stupid idiot

played ball with alicia
she's a bird's killer okay
people aim the basket
she aimed at birds la
so mean okay haha
and her laughters damn scary la please
and hello! i don't like _______ la
stop spreading around okay
or else i spread about you ah haha
don't tell too much personal stuffs to her,
cause she will tell other people for sure
i'm not _______ her, up to you to believe

maybe you're jealous, i don't know

home
my leg's aching
i'm worn out la ):
glad that you finally said it out
i wanna save everything, just put your trust in me
please don't think or feel like that,
cause it's not true at all

i'm gonna study tmr and sunday okay
there will be funny pictures in my blog tmr
cause today's post is simply long yeah

maybe you still don't get my point. i don't want you to put in so much on me and end up nothing in the end, i don't want you to be hurt when the truth is out. i didn't know that you actually cares. i'm happy because of you (:

i don't wanna end it with or without a reason. just trust me, and i'll do the rest for you just to make you happy. if i were to ____ someone, you'd be the first one i tell. but maybe you're thinking much again, i don't blame you. cause i'm the one being selfish now, i'm sorry but i'm risking it all in a glance )':

that is still wasn't what i want, maybe none can make it come true. is it really hard to take _______ , i don't know, but sure enough i'm a loser or even a failure, cause i can't even protect the things around me anymore, but still i can't bear to let go ):

you make it clear;

okay i think the pictures are so damn funny la anway don't misunderstood cause it's not mine, i'm not so lame haha

shit man my blogger went bonkers again la, so pardon me if i blog like that yeah

last night i studied my bio and chem till quite late la, but i'm glad i studied (: , but not totally yet yeah. will study later

xuanya and i planned out something la haha

amandatan! i won't get horny if i watch it la haha. i guess you will instead haha

was on the phone with sweeetie pie, and i just kept laughing la. cause it's funny okay, she's laughing also la haha

oh gosh, can you just leave her alone please, sighs. if you wanna find someone, can find me but don't disturb her no more. now i know why people told me that you're a ___ _____ , sighs

i'm glad that finally you understood how i feel. good that you're happy, cause if you are, i am (: you can pretend nothing happen, how i wish i were you, but sorry i can't. tomorrow don't have _____ ):

are you using me? cause this is how i think yeah. if you are, don't give excuses anymore, just admit yeah. i want to change fate, i don't care. i regretted, that i didn't treasure in the past, now that you're gone )':

i don't take it for granted, instead i treasure it the most now. i guess i'm not important now. i just feel very weird. and this is why i lost many friendships, sighs. forget it, who cares. when i think about all the things i feel i lack. feeling jaded, when it's not gone right. i wanna run as fast as i can, to the middle of no where

And tonight girl, there's only you and me

don't love me;

last night was on the phone with sweeetie pie haha
we still haven't talk finish okay

i need to study already

read something, and somehow i think it's true.

why wouldn't you leave me alone?
why wouldn't you leave them alone?

whatever i typed in the email, it's true, songs that kept reminding me of you.
please promise me not to ___ , cause it hurts me.

i'm trying to save, i don't wanna escape.
i'll learn to let go, i'll learn to walk away alone )':

i don't know what's on my mind, somehow i'm scared
what if i'm not there?
cause i can't even trust myself anymore
i'll learn not to cry, my heart is fragile already

i can't pretend, i can't fake, i can't act

i want to heal you, you're pain inside

last night i didn't have a nice sleep la
i had a flu
woke up continously from 0230 la sighs
i'm tired

met wendy
had breakfast in the canteen
i'm sorry, but i think i changed my impression of you already

went down and waited from maggie lee
she haven't even reach school like at 0720 already la
anyway the pbl is dragged to this friday la haha

shit man i didn't know can wear uniform okay
maybe she'll be the better choice, anyway it's the conclusion already

went to field
anna they all sang the chorus loud for my people my home la
i was laughing okay
anyway it's boring la, i almost black out la

celebrations on the hall
the dancers danced very nice yeah
they cried,
you all make me want to cry okay, sighs
i forced myself not to think about it yeah
that past memories, will it be back? )':
but still i got my friends (:
i'm sorry people

you, don't get sad because of me,
it's not worth it
i don't wanna be a burden to you, or trouble you yeah

at the bus stop
the song just suits me totally
but it makes me think a lot yeah
i don't want you to go,
but you've to go somehow
no matter how far you are,
i will find you till the end

went tiong
must it to be like that?
i don't wanna be in the middle
but because of you, it changed everything

at least you listened to me, no worries, i'll help you

was very complicated la
was running here and there
don't chance to get my coffee ice blended la
i wanna tell you, i wanna ask you
but you don't seems to care
somehow i can feel it already yeah (:

went back school for maths lesson
me and liling very tired okay
anyway we slept la
just hoping time pass fast, i don't really understand okay sighs

went back tiong
she's going back, i wanna send her home, but she's rushing ):
ate at long john
wanling liling and bendan were there
tha princess ah, don't know that two people were waiting for her la
anyway it ended nice (:

home
i won't dare to ask anyone,
cause i'm just scared to know the ending
another terrible night

i've study my CA2 during the holidays already
i need to catch up already

maybe in the end, you're the one that will end up with nothing
i don't play, i'm serious, just don't follow me, you'll regret

i want to be the one that hug you, i want to give you the care

it's still unsolve, i need to make a choice
this can't be forever, there will only be one
i don't wanna end it like that, i'll be sad in either ):

don't follow me, you'll regret

the past, i miss

slept at 0030

woke up at 0430
i'm early today
i'm sorry, but i still can't do it, give me time, sorry

met wendy
went to canteen for breakfast
i had stomachache again
can anyone consider how i feel?
i'm innocent, i don't wanna get neglected ):

our class wants the bowling inter class game to be postpone la
cause everyone's busy today yeah

two periods or english
chat with liling till i'm tired la
i slept for awhile only la

maths
did class test
i totally having question marks all over my head la ?-_-?
shitty man tmr i got extra lesson
cause i did very bad for my previous test la

ss
ms vino sucks la
she took our recess time okay tsk

recess
didn't eat anything
roamed around
me and liling were ki hong la haha

history
today i'm smart! (:

two periods of chinese
your letter just made me sad ):
went toilet cause i just wanna be alone awhile
went back class, something made me damn furious
you're too much
did talking about the loan shark, was rather easy,
get over it and done with yeah
slept la, felt tired

after school
was rather not in the mood
you better don't play with her feelings,
i won't let you fall for her
went canteen to have lunch
then waited for maggie lee to present out pbl
there's no place to present today
and tmr after the celebration, she's busy yeah
so present it tmr early in the morning at 0700 la
anyway it doesn't affect me la yeah

shit la tmr need to wear bball tee plus SKORTS la
i don't care, i wanna wear uniform can, sighs
don't feel like going to school tmr anymore la

zhenyi went home first

liling wanna stay in school
it seems like there's a lot of activities going on yeah

suppose to meet zhenyi at the bus stop
actually she satat the bus stop for quite some time already
but cause she's wearing PINK and her back view,
seems like she's having long hair
so girl girl type la
then she came and look for me
while i was stoning on the bridge la haha

went to queensway shopping centre with zhenyi
chat with her
she's helping her friend to buy things
we went to make nametags first
all the weird weird names la
then went to buy tongue stunt yeah
saw a girl cried cause she pierced her nose yeah
then went to buy vaniella coffee ice blended
zhenyi's nice!
went back to collect the nametags
catch up with her a lot la
she's a good listening ears and counsellor la
maybe you're the only one i could trust now
must shh okay

went to tiong
met them
i didn't tell her anything
she's just playing with you only yeah
i wouldn't want many people to know either
anyway i'm sorry, i really need to talk to you also

went to mac
met sherlyn they all
*i didn't teach sherlyn the hand sign of wtf okay*
don't liten to her nonsense if you read her blog yeah
priscillawong came, she kept questioning me
how irritating haha
you're not replying my msg
reply or i'll cry

home
nah you still don't understand how i feel
cause you don't know what's happening yeah

you don't have to waste your time to care for me
i don't want my problems to be a burden to you
and troubled you, give me time, i'm sorry but i've got no choice anymore ):

i felt insecure this time, i felt so pain inside,
i can't feel the feel for you now, everything changed suddenly
finally i can feel the pain you had inside for so long, i'm sorry )':
i wanna turn back the time, let's go back to the past, please i beg you
i can't bear to let you go, i'll learn to treasure you, this i promise you
i wanna sew back the torn part in your heart, i wanna give you the secureness
i wanna give you the care, i wanna love you all over again )':

finally i got the conclusion,
but i don't know whether it's right or wrong
time is all i need,
but still i don't wanna lose any
maybe time will change everything, i guess

time will change everything;

you can have the time for all you want,
but i hope time won't change everything

last night after i went offline
did my english homework
did until halfway felt asleep la
i'm tired yeah

anyway i did my homework this afternoon, i'm guai
but the pbl i never touch at all
cause i don't know how to redo yeah

cut my hair today
not obvious
cause i can't make it obvious either

this week coming holidays,
shall study my CA2, once again, i'm guai

maybe you just need someone to talk to,
i'll still be there for you, i guess
but just _____ , as simple as that
cause i don't want misunderstandings or rumours
to ruin our friendship yeah

maybe we will change, that why i respect your decision
i'm happy that you said it's me (:
you're the one i miss

i'm worried about you, you're scaring me,
i felt that you're not okay, i really can feel that
i don't want the drift, i don't want the bond, i don't want the gap

i don't wanna be alone, i don't wanna run away anymore
i really need ____
i don't wanna lose ____
i just refuse to tell anyone, why just no one understand how i feel?
why not even you?

i regretted that you're gone
please come back, i'll wait for you

mei ai guo, suo yi ai cuo

saw bel at marina square
corissa was shouting and screaming la
so active haha

that song just kept repeating in my mind, it just reminds me of you
did my status change to a good or bad one?
are you thinking of me?

i'm waiting, but somehow i'm disappointed
i've no one else to blame, but only me myself and i
maybe someone had already replaced me, it's true i guess

i think a lot, i tried to ask people for options
but still no conclusion to it
i don't wanna _____ anyone
i don't want to stop cause i think i could still hold on
but it won't last long, that day will eventually come, i guess
i wanna cry, anyone lend a shoulder? )':

i'm willing to run away with you,
as long as we're together

don't let anyone come in our way;

i'm too tired to do my english homework
after i went offline
so i didn't do

yesterday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANYA!

i'm very tired in the morning la
i guess i didn't have enough sleep nowadays la
met wendy
went to canteen and reply letters haha
i'm very scared already
i don't wanna make it obvious

wearing jersey next tuesday

ss
ms vino sucks like hell!
she just can't teach for nuts la
and she critizise people la

english
yay can hand in the homework on monday!
it's an agrumentative essay la, die!

maths
did class test
some people never even try or write anything
then just heads just dropped on the table and sleep la
geraldlyn's innocent la
anyway our group people very the concidence la
all have the *ahem* la haha

pe
did sit ups
xuewen and felissa's beside me la
xuewen kept laughing la
made me laugh also
so i didn't concentrate la
anyway nevermind la
i got an A haha
played ball
and there's this bangala kept running away with the basketball la
not as if, it's hers right
why all sec 2 all out of mind one ah haha

recess
played ball
shixuan, HAHAHA!
you're disgusting la. don't make me puke please

poa
did class test
it's easy, i guess
slept after i finished

chemistry
stupid calculation la
i just don't understand okay

went to toilet
saw japanese flag la!
eww!

assembly
sat near the exits
it's windy plus cooling la

after school
leave her alone, she's innocent
you two had enough already k
the both of you better watch out,
i might do something uncontrollable


me liling and charmaine went to do pbl in cyberhome
in the end spent more time blogging la
i'm not included yeah
then alot of people came in also

waited to present
but got so many groups spent so much time la
so in the end never present anything la
wasted my time
or else i can go training okay
suddenly, i got the urge to go back training le

helped priscilla wong
to measure that stupid white cloth for her lit on stage la
so retarded okay
like measuring dead body la
anyway we really went ki hong la
waimun sabo me la haha
priscillawong's a lousy cuuter haha

then went to hardcourt
opps sang the wrong song haha
okay i know what happen already

then we walked to the bridge already
the audreys ah
then said where they are la
then me and liling walked back to house craft room la
don't know why they kept walking here and there la
but i screamed, shit man
can anyone consider how i feel?!?
i don't know what's going on )':

liling went to find someone first
me waimun priscilla wong take bus to tiong first
maybe you still have feelings for her,
i wouldn't know yeah
haiyer waimun! i know i'm short la tsk haha

saw people in mac
liling and the audreys came la
went to kopitiam

i thought of rooftop!
went up there
the night scenery was damn nice la
i felt really guilty
waimun came up
i sent waimun to the bus stop cause she needs to go home
we chat a lot la
maybe you're the best one i can ever have
liling went into mac first

then went up to rooftop alone this time
sorry, i just wanna be alone yeah

you would be enjoying that time
you don't have to tell me, you know?

the two audreys came up and find me
and said some guy molested them with his eyes?!?
ahem la

saw tricia and sherlyn in long john

then went to mac
haiyo crapped again lo
nonsensical again lo
laughed like siao again lo

went home at 2130 yeah
reached home at 2245 la
but thank god, my parents didn't scold me
that's the best parents la haha

i'm too tired to go online la
or even blog la yeah
had a nice sleep, i guess

today
i guess i can have the whole house for myself
everyone's out

you're the one that hurt me, but you wouldn't know

don't change your view or yourself towards me,
because of people that comes in our way

what if they were to find out the truth?
i'm really scared of the day that comes to end everything sadly
i know it won't last long, i can't hide forever

it's a long post
my blog time and date is totally screwed up la

i'm willing to do it,
till you accept it one day

maybe i'm not the perfect one in your eyes,

maybe this is the only way we could communicate
i won't let it end no matter what

woke up at 0500
was very tired la

met wendy
had breakfast with her
zhenyi and audreytan came

morning assembly
i avoided mdm lim okay
but cause people laughed so laugh
that mdm lim spotted me la tsk
but i think she's tired of me le la haha

ss
i'm very tired

chinese
i'm very tired
slept
kana caught by mr ng la

maths
me and elaineyeo kept copying wendy's work la haha

bio
pon yeah
me and liling just chat lo
i heard people kana caught by jenny leong la haha

recess
i'm confused for the obs thing okay
should i go for obs or obm?
forget it la, maybe this is the ending i deserved yeah

f&n
did my practical test today
sighs, my sausages became chao ta la tsk
i just refused to let people eat la
i wanna throw it away okay
but they snatched away la
and they said it's nice la
they ate finish okay
i didn't really eat la,
i threw all away yeah
i only ate the agar agar
elainetan's agar agar poisonous la haha

something happened i guess
i heard both sides stories already,
maybe it's just misunderstandings yeah

after school
went to bookshop
to meet wanling
liling got detention yeah
wanling kept us waiting la

walked to tiong with sherlyn and tricia
okay we ki hong along the way la haha
choo choo train haha
opps sherlyn dropped her handphone haha
i ran okay tsk
both of them chase after me la haha

reached tiong
...
...
...
i don't wanna crush you
a lot of funny things happened
a lot of people involved too haha
damn funny la
i enjoyed myself la yeah
i guess we hack care the problems around us already (:

finally i talked! haha (:

shit tmr got a lot of tests okay
i never study la
i never even bring my books home la shitty man
i left it in the locker

sighs, i hate tmr for sure la
got training somemore la tsk

i'm happy nowadays but tired yeah,
but i think it's worth it
i'm finding myself back already,
thankyouverymuch YOU!
you're the only one that can make me smile (:

i want us to be like this forever, i don't wanna run away
you don't have to say forever, for us to hang together

why did i treasure you when you're gone?
why didn't i treasure you when you're right infront of me?

i felt guilty, i'm dragging everything now
i don't care, cause i'm happy

only one in my heart;

all i could do now,
is keep walking straight

last night was really bored la
tired but can't sleep la
luckily can chat with her haha
i guess, you're only one i could depend on for now

woke up early today
so won't be late
and can meet wendy earlier

i met her at 0625 i think
then had breakfast
sighs, my stomach haven't wake up yet okay

did my poa homework early in the morning okay
anywai i did it le
geraldlyn chocolates please! haha
think about it,
shit i forgot to buy the mickey mouse plaster la opps!

the councillors that had speech today ah
very pro la
especially cherene la
wileen's too nervous la i think
her speech is screwed up haha
i told her to find my face la

f&n
i slept la
was super tired la yeah

history
maybe i'm so gonna love history period
from today onwards yeah
sighs, how should i react is the best?

english
kaya and butter never say anything correct de la
anyway me and liling made them pissed la haha
wrote rubbish on the paper la tsk
cause i don't know what to do okay
english is so complicated la

poa
i listen in class today, i guess
i forgot what i'm doing le la

recess
oh man! 3P had the same recess as us la
oh hell no peace
anyway i deleted the photo in huiwen's handphone le haha
anyway who got the photo,
don't send to her ah
or else judytan will come find you! haha
whatever i did, i did is for you

pc
ms maggie lee came into our class
then talked about we must cooperate with the teachers
and lalala la

when walking down to the lab for bio
saw mrs wong
her eyes were red okay
did she cry?

bio
wrote letter
slack here and there
without chua ke ai, the class is so quiet la
anyway i had a good long sleep haha
sighs, i'm confuse already

after school
met wanling at the bookshop
accompanied her to library
she needed to do her art and home econs work yeah
anyway she said mdm lim's dote on her la
gave her a chicken burger haha

went to tiong
met rebecca, audreytan cum wong yeah
then lynn they all were in tiong also
went to find them
saw hannah yeah
oh they are all passives eh
and i'm the active that needed to help them carry bag eh
stupid sherlyn the successful bung la

then went to kfc
i wanna eat cheesefries but mac don't have yeah
so i take away from kfc and ate it in mac yeah
tricia and wendy came
tricia and wanling can be twins le la
both are lame-o yeah
i don't know about her,
she's weird la

tricia and wendy left
wanling left also
if not she got no keys to go in her house la haha
left me audreytan cum wong yeah
that stupid english article that
audreytan needed to translate it to chinese ah
is totally screwed up la haha
and the tv in mac is all about pirates la haha
audreywong's laughing at it la retarded!
saw lynn and huiwen
i shouldn't have call them la tsk
got this two china kids ah
the younger one is cute la
audreytan kept asking them the same question,
but they always never say their names out la
and she got me malu yeah
i've to act strong infront of you

went home with audreywong

i don't want it to stay the same, i'm falling deeper, sorry.

i won't let it fade in black and white,
i'll make it colourful

sighs i'm so tired la, i got to choose one day

i'll follow what my heart says;

i wouldn't cheat any feelings,
it's just too important to me

woke up
was super tired la
don't wanna say what happen on my way to school la
okay it's funny and retarded la

thanks for the presents! (:

i don't know where i lost my school badge okay
it just dropped somewhere in the middle of no where
without me knowing la

two periods of chemistry
i'm tired la
geraldlyn and me just kept bickering la
i can't stand her okay tsk
ask her to teach me how to calculate ah
wah super duper hard la
must listen to her niam first
i would rather debra help me la haha

forget it, all my fault okay
i don't wanna talk about it already yeah

maths
my mind was on the track la

pe
re-run my 2.4
but still i'm not happy with my timing la
i wanna re-run again
i felt stressed up yeah
i would rather you be there for me

recess
i felt kan kor

i don't know whether i'm lying or not
but i'm very sure that is you
it's okay if you forgot le
cause i don't wanna talk about it no more

cme
in the audi
sighs, i really don't know what to do le la
was rather down
zhenyi thanks!

poa
i put my handphone in my pencil case
and was msging
then suddenly mrs wong walked towards me
i thought she know that i was msging la
then she asked "why you so tired?"
i said "no."
haha scares me okay
my heart was thumping hard la
elainetan thanks for the highlighting yeah

chinese
slept la
was so tired la

after school
went to chat with them
i guess, nothing will happen in the moment la
even it do happen, i just lie can already lo
thanks for helping me,
but cause i'm very sure that she already side with them le,
i can't do anything also yeah

then went to fourth level
chat with zhenyi
she's a good listening ear okay haha

then went to ms sim's class
ms sim wanna know more about my class la
then slept haha
can't blame me cause i'm too tired yeah

then went for training
but didn't do much
was doing some self skills la yeah
i know you're sad yeah

homed
cause i'm tired yeah

geraldlyn, i will do my homework!
watch it man!

i don't know why, i don't know what to do,
cause it's increasing, somehow i miss you so yeah

must be happy no matter what,
today's a special day for you and me

i'm loving wrongly, i got to choose one day